Empty Space - My First Poem

There's a empty space
in my home today
The one i used to hold
on my chest
ever so lightly
my dear sweet little Sassy

It brings me to tears
when i feel the loss
of one i hold so dear
But there's no empty space
in my heart today
for there she keeps her place
Jan 9/24/05


 
Written while in the hospital late last year-

Tired and weary
draining me
the mind sees a deep
dark, dank, dreary hole
where no end seems in sight
The voices say there is no place to go
but now, i am not so sure,
that there just might be some light.
Jan 10/13/05
 


Something I found myself writing in North Carolina when it started raining.
My relationships,and how I got this good relationship through online recovery.

North Carolina Rain

North Carolina Rain
is not the same
from what i'm use to.
It really was quite tame.

North Carolina Rain
is quite a sight
showing me times
that really are quite right

North Carolina Rain
is really somewhat cool
It reminds me of the tool
that brought me to
North Carolina Rain
JAN 4/17/06



My father passed away 6/28/06.

"Where Are They?"

Where are the memories locked so tight;
I fight to find them, to seek them out.
I want the good ones to come to mind
So, Lord, if you will, bring them to light

They're there Lord, i know they are
Take me to the place that they may be
please open my heart and mind
they really cant be so very far

Good memories await me, i want that fill
They will come when the time is right
So i stop fighting what i am ready to find
And let the Lord above reveal His will
Jan 7-2-06



"A Talk With Dad"

Talking with you
was a welcome change;
Saying "I love you"
didn't even seem strange;
Feeding you meals
I never have done
Missing you now
when our time had just begun.
Jan 7-8-06



"Safety in the Lighthouse"

Unfinished at times
and under duress
The past flows back
with much unrest

Emotions are raw
its time to seek
a safer place
for one so weak

I know not where
the place to go
when the mind is unclear
i really dont know

Guidance from Power
greater than I
sees what i need
when tears i cry

God lifts me up
when i take a look
My lighthouse He shows me
thats all it took.
Jan 9-12-06



After the death of someone I knew, who died in her addiction:

Never to be taken
in such a way
that I can say
i can not be shaken,
For to the core
it can take me
but there is more
that I could see
a way one sign
to my demise,
But for this day
I want to stay
and continue my life
through all the strife
for when its all over
I want to be sober.
Jan 9-19-06



I am Grieving Lord

I wish you would take the grief away
but then I see the time to pray.
In pain and sorrow, You never fail
to give me strength , You show it well.
For I know in time the pain will fade
but in this moment I will stay
in feeling the process with You indeed
and sparing me not my times to grieve.
Jan 9-24-06



"His Pain, My Gain"

Awaiting the day that He will arrive
His child I am, no longer to cry;
No longer in tears, no longer in pain
His death on the Cross brought me much gain;
Risen to heaven, He brought us the call
life after death is for one and all;
Accepting, believing, will only show
through trials and triumphs we will grow;
He will not turn away for what we did
for sober now, He sees how we lived.
Jan 9-24-06