1 year but scared

[bellsbells12]

I have been off cocaine for nearly a year but I am nervous coming into the holiday season. Usually depression hits and I want to use. I know it will be a struggle and every day will be an easier day. I know I will find my strength.
Does anyone ever have this problem?

[admin]

:67: bellsbells12! :17: Glad to have you join us here. Congratulations on your upcoming year! :29: I remember being nervous during my first holiday season and I can tend to get depressed some because of things that happened during the holidays in my past. Check this link out when you get a chance http://www.cyberrecovery.net/forums/showthread.php?t=6956 . It has some posts that you may find helpful. Any holiday is just another day - just another 24 hours. I know of meetings that during a holiday they will run all day. You can find face to face meetings or online meetings that do that. Also some meetings I have gone to have offered like Thanksgiving Dinner after the noon meeting that day. Another thing they would have a dance. Check out what is going on at your meeting during the holidays. If you find yourself having a serious problem with depression then I suggest you see you doctor about that if you haven't already. You can load up on your meetings during the holidays and stay close to your sponsor. Plus keep your phone number list handy. If you have to go to a party then plan ahead. Keep your drink in your hand at all times. Take what you will be drinking with you. Be careful of foods you eat during the holidays. Some may contain alcohol. When in doubt, always ask. Have your own ride so you can leave when you choose. You can also choose to take a recovery friend with you to parties. Talk to your sponsor about any parties you will be attending and get their suggestions. Make plans for yourself during the holidays. If you check your local newspaper you should find a section that lists activities that are going on in your area. Please feel free to continue to come here and share with us. We are here for you. :42:

[Humblepie]

Yes I have this problem.

Money in my wallet scares me.

[Montauktammy]

When I am in fear, and i do go to fear quite often I pray and think of all the people in the rooms who pray at the end of a meeting if I can't do it for me I do it for them, so you are in fear? I am praying if you can't do it for you go to a meeting do it for us.

[BrokenWing]

Praying for you...:195:

[CD BUCKBERRY]

:Dbellsbells12,I used cocaine for a long time it was scary coming out of it,but I came back and got to know the person inside.:D