Been meaning to come for a while

[mmmseeks]

Hi all, my name is Maria and I'm an alcoholic/addict. I have been in and out of recovery for a long time (20 years?). I KNOW you never have it down, but naturally I thought I did (still think I do?). Anyway, am here to talk to some folks that know me cause I'm surrounded by folks who've had the incredible luck of being born "normal."

[admin]

:67: Maria! :17: So very glad to have you join us here. Please make yourself at home. If you need help with anything just let us know. I look forward to getting to know you better. keep coming and sharing with us. :42:

[cassie]

Hello Maria
Glad you found the site. Your post caught my eye - I have heard that "normal" (Like beauty) is sometimes in the eye of the beholder.

I am cassie, grateful recovering alcoholic. I hope you continue to share your journey with us. I, for one, can't do it alone.

[Humblepie]

Well hello there Maria my name is Humblepie and I am the token "normal" person on this site.

If I may for a moment I would like to talk about myself.......ok actually I love talking about myself it just happens to be my favorite subject.

First thing about me is whenever anyone accuses me of thinking "it's all about me".........I agree with them :lol: I'm mean.......am I wrong?

This is going to be so much fun I think I just wet myself.

I like taking long romantic walks along the beach watching the sun set over the ocean and puking my guts out because I probably shouldn't have smoked that joint after drinking a fifth of rum assuming of course I can walk. That sand gets pretty tricky when I'm "corked" as the big book would call me. This would be normal for me if I lived near the beach.

Waking up with the desire to drink being the only thing in the world that matters to me is kinda normal. If I'm so nauseas that I can't even eat but I am shaking so bad I have to take a drink so I throw up in the bathroom and then chug down some rum real quick before I get nauseas again........Now that is normal. Some people think that is messed up but they just don't know what fun is. Personally I think they are jealous.

I know the big book says insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Don't tell anyone but I am convinced different results can happen.

I of course can go on but let me just some it all up. As long as I have a fifth of rum by my side everything is normal.



If you don't think that's normal well then -------------> :144:

I look forward to hearing from you Maria, keep coming back. :15:

[China Love]

:67: Maria! :17: So very glad to have you join us here. Please make yourself at home. If you need help with anything just let us know. I look forward to getting to know you better. keep coming and sharing with us. :42:

I hope you get this I'm new at this site and computers lol. I've been sober 6mos. thanx:29:

[janbear]

Hi Maria :17: Nice to meet you. Yes, i have been that way occassionally that i thought i "had it down". That is usually for me when i have gotten to complacent in my recovery. 2 times it took me to a relapse, other times i would usually have some experience happen that would jar me into reality. The reality that i only have a daily repreive contingent on the mainteance of my spiritual condition as the Big Book says.
I like being around people who know me and understand that being fellow recovering alcoholic/addicts, of course. I look forward to getting to know you better.