Willingness and denial

[lostgirl]

I am having a very hard time right now. I am a baby at this. I am going on 25 days clean of cocaine. I am going through a painful divorce, as well as, another painful relationship predicament b/c I tore myself out of the environment which was contributing to my use into another, and I miss that person terribly. My problem is: I don't think I am ready to quit. Am I alone?

[dalin]

Just hang in there and pray.
I need you in my recovery,so hang in there.

[terrikdriver]

I am having a very hard time right now. I am a baby at this. I am going on 25 days clean of cocaine. I am going through a painful divorce, as well as, another painful relationship predicament b/c I tore myself out of the environment which was contributing to my use into another, and I miss that person terribly. My problem is: I don't think I am ready to quit. Am I alone?

Not long ago I struggled with the same problem. I spent some time alone and prayed (asked God) and meditated (listened for his answer). I also did a lot of soul searching to figure out which would be more painful? To stay the same (YES) or take my chances, jump out there on faith, and try a completely different way of life. It's the best decision I ever made. Are you going to meetings and do you have a sponsor? You don't have to go it alone. Try to make at least 90 meetings in 90 days when you quit...Just stick with it...and by the way, was cocaine your only drug/drink? Congratulations on the 25 days :85:

[fiennesline]

Congrats on 25 days. Come to mjeetings, everything will be okay , you can get through this :42:

[dubugz]

You're not alone... remember people with 26 days had to have 25 first. We all go through the feelings of is this for me, can I really do this for another 3 minutes, 3 hours etc.

Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and this too shall pass. (keep letting people know how you feel!)

You're doing great!

[scottocs]

Hi!
No, you're not alone, but I understand how you could feel that way. Feelings are real, but they're not reality. You're not alone, ok? Everyone is here for you. Keep doing what you're doing, even if it's uncomfortable. Do ninety in ninety, stay connected and talk about your thoughts with a sponsor, if you have one. Please get a sponsor, if you haven't already, you'll be SO glad you did. You're ready, I should think, if you're asking yourself tough questions....but you're probably fearful of the unknown. We all were/are. You're right where you're supposed to be. Many of us can remember EXACTLY how you're feeling. Draw strength from us, it's one of the things we do best....what we love to do!

Scott