James King -

[wjk110952@hotmail.com]

I am new to this site & have struggled with relapse most of my life. I have been a Christian for 15 years & have been clean this time since Jan/09/2007
I really want to stay clean & sober. Alcoholism/ Addiction have destroyed both
sides of my family. Father committed suicide 3 months before I was born &
mother has been a alcoholic/addict all of my life. I am now 55 years. I have isolated myself for virtually my WHOLE life!! I need your prayers as I know without Christ I will die an active addict. Please help me!!!!!!
James

[celticgrey]

Welcome James, I am still fairly new to this site also. I hope you find, as I have, that there are many people here to help and a lot of good stuff to read and think about. Up until just a few years ago, I too was a chronic relapser. Since sobering up this last time, I have discovered two things about me. One is that I never used to put into practise those things I heard at meetings or talked with others about. I would go to lots of meetings and wonder why I still drank. It was because I wasn't using what I learned to change myself with. I would hear good stuff but put it in my pocket and never take it out. Secondly, I know now that I did not have a spiritual program to support me. I was always confused about God and did not have any practical application of spirituality in my life. I kept confusing spirituality and religion. Thanks to AA, I now have strengthened my spiritual life and find that I can now also have a religious side to my life also. The two are not in conflict, they compliment one another. I have found that fear of change can lead me back to isolating myself and staying away from those people and things that can help me. Being aware of what the fear is really about and sharing it has helped me. I hope you can find some peace of mind a day at a time with Christ being your higher power. Terry

[Humblepie]

Hi James.

Thank you so much for coming here and sharing with us.

Congradulations on your sobriety your doing great.

Relapse, family addiction, suicide, isolation, is a lot to overcome on your own James but you but you are not alone. You know without Christ you will die an active addict. Jesus is always with us. Turning our will over to God and living in Christ is our only hope. You know God speaks through others and Gods will for us is to listen to people like Terry. If we do the little things that take care of today we don't have to die in this disease.

If prayers are what you came here for you have mine.

[admin]

:67: James! :17: Glad to have you join us. Congratulations on your sober time! :29: The combination of God and AA is what has helped me to get sober and stay sober. Have you tried any AA meetings? When I came to AA, all I knew was how to live life drinking. AA showed me how to live life sober. We also have online meetings here http://www.cyberrecovery.net/forums/chat_mainpage.php . You can check the meeting times here http://www.cyberrecovery.net/forums/chatmeet.php . Please feel free to continue to come and share with us here. We are here for you. I will say a prayer also. :42:

[janbear]

:94: Hi James. Its nice to meet you. Praying for you :195:

[Aprilskyzz]

James, I too grew up with an addict mother. My dad was no where to be found. I unfortunately, followed that path, but, have been clean now for some time and it is a much easier way to live. Using is just way too hard.

April

[craig]

Welcome James, My name is Craig and I am an alcoholic. Yes, great pain is inevitable;but misery is optional. Thanks for sharing your pain. You know wise men say alcoholism is like suicide on the slow installment plan. Even as terrible as you may feel;you do not have to feel that way. It may be a lot of hard work on your part;but so worthwhile. You are a lovely child of God. God does want you to be happy ,joyous and free! I will pray.