First day

[Humphrey Bogarth]

In fact my first hour.

I've never been to a meeting before. I tried going once about 3 months ago and when I arrived at the door I was very relieved that they had moved somewhere else.


Filling in the form to register here today I hesitated at that one line... "I am:"

I've never said this until today. I didn't feel good about saying it today either. In fact when I completed the profile I placed my curser on it to erase it. But, that wouldn't change anything; its true I am an alcoholic.

I haven't read much of the posts here yet. I just wanted to say hello first. So if anyone wants to point to where to go first I sure don't mind; I'm as newbie green as they come. I did spend the day though with God doing steps 1 to 4 today. So anyway, my heart is open to you.

[kaistevens]

I'm Kai, I'm a grateful alcoholic.

I came to AA because I couldn't drink anymore, but I couldn't stop. And I couldn't live that way anymore, but I couldn't die. I didn't want to be there but I just didn't have anywhere else to go.

What I found was a home, and a family, who knew and understood what I was going through, and the things I had gone through that got me there. I wasn't exactly happy, or excited, or even all that hopeful about it, but like I said, I had nowhere else to go.

I could write volumes about how my life has changed, and all the help that I have gotten from recovery, but, if you are anything like I was when I first arrived, you might find most of it hard to believe. But if you are anything like most of the rest of us, and you are out of other ideas, then it can't hurt to stick around and see what happens.

Keep coming back. It's free, and you won't believe what you get out of it.

Kai

[Humblepie]

Thanks for sharing with us.

Our hearts are open to you as well because we have all been where you are right now. It's a hard place to be but there is hope, there is a new way of life that is much better. If you want a glimpse of it find another meeting and just listen. You will see is people just like yourself. People who at one time enjoyed alcohol, enjoyed the euphoria but finally found that it was causing more problems then it was worth only to discover they no longer had control over it and couldn't stay sober for any length of time. You will see people who have found a new way of life without alcohol and are happier now on their worst days sober then they used to be on their best days drinking. You will be able to see it in their eyes, smiles, warmth and laughter.

It takes a lot of courage to do what you are doing.

Whether or not you go to a meeting you are always welcome here. There is caring and friendship here so you don't have to do this alone.

Take care and let us know how you are doing. :smile:

Here is one thread you might try.
http://www.cyberrecovery.net/forums/showthread.php?t=12023

[admin]

:67: Humphrey Bogarth! :17: Glad to have you join us here. I hope you will check out AA meetings. AA and God helped me to get sober and stay sober. Before I came to AA, all I knew was how to live life drinking. In AA I learned how to live life sober. please feel free to continue to share with us here. We are here for you. :42:

[Gracie]

In fact my first hour.

I've never been to a meeting before. I tried going once about 3 months ago and when I arrived at the door I was very relieved that they had moved somewhere else.


Filling in the form to register here today I hesitated at that one line... "I am:"

I've never said this until today. I didn't feel good about saying it today either. In fact when I completed the profile I placed my curser on it to erase it. But, that wouldn't change anything; its true I am an alcoholic.

I haven't read much of the posts here yet. I just wanted to say hello first. So if anyone wants to point to where to go first I sure don't mind; I'm as newbie green as they come. I did spend the day though with God doing steps 1 to 4 today. So anyway, my heart is open to you.


Welcome Humphrey!!! A newbie for sure.....those infamous words, "I am an alcoholic" come with it a real stereotype, and it's a scary thing to say....

BUT....

Admission is the first step....and YOU DID IT :12: :tongue: :29: :85:

Where to go?? Ummmm....into any forum that grabs your attention...and just read....there is so much to relate to....even if you don't want to admit it....inside, your heart knows.

Oh...by the way, My name is Becky and I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic. Been sober 9 months now.....slowly but surely God is turning my life around, sometimes it feels it's being turned inside out....that's probably due to my own ideas of what He should be doing :mrgreen:

Hang in there...keep coming back!! I've been a part of this cyber family for a year now...and the help has been a God send for sure!!

[tlyn]

Hi Humphrey,, Welcome. Taking that first step and admitting that I was an alcoholic was scary. But also carried a huge relief. Congratulations on having the courage to take the first step. Keep coming back. There is a huge amount of Love, experience, strength and hope here.

[janbear]

Hello Humphrey. For me, i think the first time, all i could say was "I have a problem" Its was hard to admit that i am alcoholic but has ended up being the freeing thing, for me too there was a relief once i finally admitted it. Hope you found AA meetings, for they will save your life. Feel free to share here too.