Surrender.....Melody Beattie

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Surrender

Master the lessons of your present circumstances.

We do not move forward by resisting what is undesirable in our life
today. We move forward, we grow, we change by acceptance.

Avoidance is not the key; surrender opens the door.

Listen to this truth: We are each in our present circumstances for a
reason. There is a lesson, a valuable lesson, that must be learned
before we can move forward.

Something important is being worked out in us, and in those around us.
We may not be able to identify it today, but we can know that it is
important. We can know it is good.

Overcome not by force, overcome by surrender. The battle is fought, and
won, inside ourselves. We must go through it until we learn, until we
accept, until we become grateful, until we are set free. ..M.B.:195:

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Something important is being worked out in us, and in those around us.
We may not be able to identify it today, but we can know that it is
important. We can know it is good.


I feel that the one thing that still throws me for a loop is "Betrayal".

When others betray me either intentionally or unintentionally......trying not to take it personally to the point where I then betray my own self, or my own soul.

unless there is a clear verbal agreement between two people, maybe what I percieve as betrayal is them actaully being true to themselves.

and I would expect nothinng less of them
Because I expect nothing less of myself.

on the other hand for those people who manipulate, decieve, and betray purposefully for selfish gain......can i not find a piece of myself and my past in the reflection of thier behavior? I use to be just like that. did exactly that, and hurt many many people in the process. This does not excuse it ofcourse, but I can relate an the emotional fallout and conflict that goes on inside me still has power.

This lesson seems to keep coming to me. even though I can recognize it for what it is....does not mean I have worked through it all on an emotional level. I still react inwardly and have to re-process through all the feelings again and again. But in this work there is some progress. I am leaning to move through it more freely without so much negative resistance and am now able to let it go more easily.I no longer get as deeply hurt or so severely wounded. Maybe one day I will get to the point where the arrow of percieved betrayal will no longer hit a bullseyes inside of me. That target can be healed and taken off the shooting range. I am hopeing to one day foregoe the judgment and replace it with instant forgiveness.

light and love

Gail