MelissaHope
12-04-2007, 02:49 AM
Wow, where do I start? :5:
I've been drinking since I was 19 or 20. It started out as a casual/occasional thing, but a few years later I found myself in some very stressful family/job situations that hit simultaneously, and I started drinking more and more to "escape". (Yeah, I know. :rolleyes:) I slowed down after the problems were settled, and mostly shared drinks with friends on weekends only.
Then three years ago I became terribly ill (totally unrelated), and ended up spending months in the hospital on-and-off, had to have several surgeries, etc. I'd lost my health insurance just months prior (long story), and lost my income as a result of being sick. There was just no way I could afford the hospital/doctor bills, so I ended up filing bankruptcy. I was devasted, and am still dealing with guilt issues, even though I know that logically that doesn't make much sense (it's not like I "chose" to get sick - LOL!).
After that, things really went downhill, drinking-wise. :8:
I'm homebound due to a disability and lack of transportation, but I've got a family member who brings me liquor whenever I ask for it or when he notices that I'm running low. I tried talking to him about it once, but he honestly doesn't believe there's a problem. (Talk about things being reversed, huh? :16: )
So ... anyway. Fast-forward to now. I haven't had a drop to drink since late Friday/early Saturday morning. I haven't even wanted one, actually.
I'm not sure going to meetings would be possible, considering my physical situation and my personality (I'm a VERY private person), but maybe I can find some folks here who have successfully quit on their own and get some motivation from them.
I guess that's all for now. :smile:
I've been drinking since I was 19 or 20. It started out as a casual/occasional thing, but a few years later I found myself in some very stressful family/job situations that hit simultaneously, and I started drinking more and more to "escape". (Yeah, I know. :rolleyes:) I slowed down after the problems were settled, and mostly shared drinks with friends on weekends only.
Then three years ago I became terribly ill (totally unrelated), and ended up spending months in the hospital on-and-off, had to have several surgeries, etc. I'd lost my health insurance just months prior (long story), and lost my income as a result of being sick. There was just no way I could afford the hospital/doctor bills, so I ended up filing bankruptcy. I was devasted, and am still dealing with guilt issues, even though I know that logically that doesn't make much sense (it's not like I "chose" to get sick - LOL!).
After that, things really went downhill, drinking-wise. :8:
I'm homebound due to a disability and lack of transportation, but I've got a family member who brings me liquor whenever I ask for it or when he notices that I'm running low. I tried talking to him about it once, but he honestly doesn't believe there's a problem. (Talk about things being reversed, huh? :16: )
So ... anyway. Fast-forward to now. I haven't had a drop to drink since late Friday/early Saturday morning. I haven't even wanted one, actually.
I'm not sure going to meetings would be possible, considering my physical situation and my personality (I'm a VERY private person), but maybe I can find some folks here who have successfully quit on their own and get some motivation from them.
I guess that's all for now. :smile: