greatfultoday
12-06-2007, 03:30 PM
let me first say thank you to all of you.
i'm jennifer, i'm an addict.the first time i ever got high i was 8, i used with my mom, on my thirteenth birthday i tried meth, or as i see it now , i fell into my coma, i used whenever i could get it , drinking and smoking whatever i could get along the way, when i was 17 i met my husband, got pregnant, tried to settle down, i was so convinced i was gonna be different, i was so focused on not becoming my mother, i became my father. A drunken, dope shooting POS. the stories as of this point are pretty much the same, resided in hell...... but in the middle there, God blessed me with 2 BEAUTIFULLLLLL children, that i took for granted, tossed to the side, my son even saw me with a needle in my hand once. and it didn't break my heart, ( not then) so on to the important part, it all was over, my house got raided, my little angels were taken, and i had nothing, nothing except God, and everyday was a struggle to spell my name, He carried me. I finally began to breathe again in treatment, I will today, be a newcomer, and today, with God, and my program, I will shut my mouth, open my heart, as well as my ears, learn something new, love myself, and just for today, i will love my babies with everything i have within me, just for today i will not abuse myself, today, NOBODY is getting tossed aside.
thanks for listening, all
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i'm jennifer, i'm an addict.the first time i ever got high i was 8, i used with my mom, on my thirteenth birthday i tried meth, or as i see it now , i fell into my coma, i used whenever i could get it , drinking and smoking whatever i could get along the way, when i was 17 i met my husband, got pregnant, tried to settle down, i was so convinced i was gonna be different, i was so focused on not becoming my mother, i became my father. A drunken, dope shooting POS. the stories as of this point are pretty much the same, resided in hell...... but in the middle there, God blessed me with 2 BEAUTIFULLLLLL children, that i took for granted, tossed to the side, my son even saw me with a needle in my hand once. and it didn't break my heart, ( not then) so on to the important part, it all was over, my house got raided, my little angels were taken, and i had nothing, nothing except God, and everyday was a struggle to spell my name, He carried me. I finally began to breathe again in treatment, I will today, be a newcomer, and today, with God, and my program, I will shut my mouth, open my heart, as well as my ears, learn something new, love myself, and just for today, i will love my babies with everything i have within me, just for today i will not abuse myself, today, NOBODY is getting tossed aside.
thanks for listening, all
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