speaking_up_n_out
12-08-2007, 07:39 PM
Hey all, new to the board but not to recovery :)
My name is Jessica, and I started al-anon when I was 28, and I just celebrated (and i mean celebrated!!) my 31st birthday. I've been in and out of meetings, but due to my severe co-dependency and insecurities, I haven't been going to "face to face" meetings. I have a bad habit of wanting to jump into relationships and being affected by people, so its been a few months. But the good news is that I went to a district meeting today and it was good. I was peaceful.
I (should be) a dual member, growing up with alcoholism I got my own addiction--food. I was going to OA for a while but its been a few months with them too.
After a year in Al-Anon, the paths to a higher power worked so well for me that I started going to Church, and my Higher Power (God) was calling me so dramatically it took just about a month for me to be saved. I "answered the altar call", as its said and accepted Jesus, and that was about a year ago. My inner life is wonderful, but I'm struggling with my real life.
Since every authority figure in my life has been (emotionally and spiritually abusive), I have a distorted view of authority. I've never had a source of loving authority in my life so I'm stuck in a rut right now. I have wonderful friends in my life, but none of them really understand. But its ok, they don't have to understand.
I am so grateful for the internet because I have such a hard time expressing myself in spoken words, and that there's so many people here that speak my language :282:
My name is Jessica, and I started al-anon when I was 28, and I just celebrated (and i mean celebrated!!) my 31st birthday. I've been in and out of meetings, but due to my severe co-dependency and insecurities, I haven't been going to "face to face" meetings. I have a bad habit of wanting to jump into relationships and being affected by people, so its been a few months. But the good news is that I went to a district meeting today and it was good. I was peaceful.
I (should be) a dual member, growing up with alcoholism I got my own addiction--food. I was going to OA for a while but its been a few months with them too.
After a year in Al-Anon, the paths to a higher power worked so well for me that I started going to Church, and my Higher Power (God) was calling me so dramatically it took just about a month for me to be saved. I "answered the altar call", as its said and accepted Jesus, and that was about a year ago. My inner life is wonderful, but I'm struggling with my real life.
Since every authority figure in my life has been (emotionally and spiritually abusive), I have a distorted view of authority. I've never had a source of loving authority in my life so I'm stuck in a rut right now. I have wonderful friends in my life, but none of them really understand. But its ok, they don't have to understand.
I am so grateful for the internet because I have such a hard time expressing myself in spoken words, and that there's so many people here that speak my language :282: