Loss of NA sister

[rockergirl]

I have recently lost a fellow Na sister I had been her sponsor at one time but I had to let her go .I had been watching this woman struggle with her addiction for a while now.She would not take any suggestions and I felt her problem was best suited for someone in the mental health profession.Well she committed suicide earlier this week and I am feeling a great deal of guilt over it.I know their was nothing I could have done but I can't help but feel this way.She never had mentioned hurting her self before. I know she is no longer in pain But the ones left behind suffer.I am reconsidering ever being a sponsor again! I would appreciate any encouraging words or advice from anyone who has experienced
A loss in recovery Thank you

Toni

[kaistevens]

I'm Kai, I'm an alcoholic.

Toni, oh what a terrible experience for you. I have had severe depression since my early teens, I became suicidal by the time I was 15. I assure you, that is a deeply rooted problem, far beyond your control. You just cannot carry that burden.

I will be a little tough here. Isn't it a little like playing God to think you could cause or prevent this? You just don't have that power. This is no different than people who relapse, or people we love, not coming in for help, and dying in this disease.

I came to recovery to save my *ss, cause I was dying, but God brought me to recovery so that he could use me to reach his broken, hurting children. It would be selfish of me to shut down and stop offering myself as a vessel for God just because I didn't like or want to accept the outcome of what happened once when I reached out.

We are not responsible for the outcome. We make ourselves available to God and put the outcome in God's hands. To stop sponsoring would not only be rejecting God's will for you, but my literature warns that it may get you drunk or high.

Toni, you are in my heart and in my prayers. Don't run away from God and this program. Run into it. God loves you and we love you.

Love ya later. Kai

[Montauktammy]

I too have lost a sponsee Linda we lost her about 3 years a go. she is with me, her 13 year old child found her overdoses in her room my home group helped with the family stuff it is hard when we get close to them. Time is the only thing that makes it better for me.

[admin]

I am so very sorry for your recent loss ((((Toni)))). I will keep you and her family in my prayers. :42:

[dalin]

Me to sister.
Keep coming.
Share your pain!

[Just42Dave]

ill keep you in our prayers

[rockergirl]

Thank You so much for your prayers everyone, and to Kai I know I was not the cause or nor could I have prevented this from happening.
I know I am not God and I know I don't have that power . However I am a human being and not feeling guilt would make me less than human.