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06-19-2006, 06:52 AM
blueeyes1967:
right now. Wherever you are. Whatever you are doing. What is it that you could have never done when you were out?
I am sitting at my desk, working. Since about 6:30. A year ago I would have probably still been home trying to stop the shakes. My eyes are clear, my mind is clear. I am well rested. I have not simply been passing out and waking up during the night for over a year now.
This....is....a....miracle...and....amazing.
anyone?
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cassie:
Hi Blueeyes
I could have never been of service to others - I could barely drag myself out of bed. Today, I am thankful for the places my HP has guided me. angel Good thought provoking question - thanks.
hug
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bry:
Blueeyes,
Six months ago today I was in a blackout. This had gone on for a week Straight. I thought I had called in sick at work for two days only to find I'd been missing in action for a week.
Tommorrow will be six months since I put down the drink and went to a meeting and asked for help.
Today I have God in my life, love, hope, and no desire to drink.
Six months ago I couldn't do anything. today every 24 hours has something and someone special in it. Very Happy
Thanks
Bry
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scots bill:
HI BLUE
mi miricle is simply looking in the mirror and liking what is looking back. that had to be worked hard for i came through the doors with an unhealthy doze of selflothing,i tottaly accept the man in the mirror today
that and having my two daughters in recovery with me.
a grateful member of aa love peace and serenity
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Essex:
HI. When I was drinking I would never felt at home with the person I am today. I would never have been able to say "I like me" that is a precious gift I have gained in sobriety.
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Janbear:
My relationship with God is truly amazing to me. Thank God for the fellowship that taught me what it means to have a spiritual relationship with God.
Caring about others is also quite amazing, because i was all about me and my own selfish, self-centered desires.
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troutfly1972:
I never could have seen that life was good. The ability to be honest and know the difference between honesty and dishonesty was shocking to me. Doing honest things doesn't really make you a honest person. I wasn't very honest with myself, not to mention other around me. I too, like what I see in the mirror everyday. Most importantly, I can interact with society not overwhelmed with my lies, decietfulness, and anger. The clouds have been lifted!!!!! bow
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soberaddy:
Good morning all. Over 2 years ago it would have taken me over 2 hours to get ready to go somewhere. I never liked what I saw, I was either too fat, to thin, too much make up, not enough, I looked old and tired, the clothes weren't right....anyway you get the idea. Today, as most of us, I can say that I love what I see loooking back and I tell her that too everytime I see her. Plus I can get ready likidy split and no matter what I am me....a miracle!
Thanks for this post! ok cheer
Love
Anne hug hug smokin
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prescott:
Good Morning, great topic. First of all I'm not in jail anymore and haven't been even asked for ID in over 7yrs. Went back to school at 50 and actually completed my courses on the honor roll. Stayed in one place long enough to get my phone listed in the phone book. Have a very good relationship with my mother (went 12 yrs. without speaking). Have a group of friends who I can really count on (who want nothing from me).
The list goes on and on and they are all gifts of recovery. hug angel hug
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soberaddy:
Quote:
Stayed in one place long enough to get my phone listed in the phone book.
Laughing Mr. Green Ya I know what you mean John...I've never managed to accomplish that till I sobered up!
It certainly does get better. cheer cheer
Love
Anne grin hug hug
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Janbear:
Quote:
good relationship with my mother
yeah, never thought it would be possible.
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Misselle:
I have my self-respect back - and that is wonderful.
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Baritone:
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Posts: 365
Location: NC
PostPosted: 24 Apr 2005 05:57 pm Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
I can drive anywhere anytime and not be worried about gettting pulled over for DWI.
I can answer the phone or the door without worrying about how well i'm succeeding at pretending to be sober.
I can go to a restaurant and not even notice whether or not they serve liquor.
I can watch a movie or read a book and remember it all the next day.
Thanks for the topic!
- Jim
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Misselle:
Joined: 15 Mar 2005
Posts: 316
Location: Texas
PostPosted: 24 Apr 2005 09:58 pm Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
Watching a movie is a good one too - it is amazing how many movies I have seen while drinking that I couldn't remember!
Not having to worry about having enough money to protect the supply is one too!
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alex e.:
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PostPosted: 25 Apr 2005 06:42 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
Very Happy
Today I wake up I love myself, and I have a relationship with my higher power. I have hope, I have friends who love and care about me. I have gratitude. And I am glad to live sober!!! ok
with much love your friend in recovery
Alex
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bluidkiti:
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Joined: 15 Mar 2005
Posts: 10498
PostPosted: 25 Apr 2005 07:05 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
Today I have God in my life, a wonderful relationship with my family and have many friends. Even though I have a nasty cold, I am sober and clean and have a clear head. I love who I am today. Very Happy
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indigo:
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PostPosted: 25 Apr 2005 09:31 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
I am happy to be alive thought I'd never live to see my children grow up let alone see a grandchild.
I can hold my head up not walk on the other side of the street in case that someone I just saw wants a conversation and I'm too out of it.
Also that I am standing, walking and living and out of bed.
indigo
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fibiray:
Joined: 16 Mar 2005
Posts: 515
Location: Australia Central Coast NSW
PostPosted: 26 Apr 2005 08:49 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
What I think is amazing is that I am an alcoholic who survived 11 years of drinking without killing myself. What is amazing is that I am an alcoholic that hasn't had a drink today, that I thought was impossible. Then there is the fact that when I came into aa I had not completed my high school education and today I have a background in arts. law and business. But the real miracle for me is that my thinking has changed enough to be less selfish and that I am capable today of helping and considering another human being.
chow chow Cool
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Troll:
Joined: 15 Mar 2005
Posts: 55
Location: Toledo Oregon
PostPosted: 26 Apr 2005 09:47 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
I am amazed that what you say counts almost more than what I might think. It is that simple premis of putting anyone or anything in front of what my own personal wants and needs are that amazes me. Of course, I did say "almost"....but it's progress and not perfection. I am amazed that there is roof over my head instead of the bridge....the words "if you only knew" pass through my cluttered mind, then I realize....you probably do know if you are alcoholic or an addict.
right now. Wherever you are. Whatever you are doing. What is it that you could have never done when you were out?
I am sitting at my desk, working. Since about 6:30. A year ago I would have probably still been home trying to stop the shakes. My eyes are clear, my mind is clear. I am well rested. I have not simply been passing out and waking up during the night for over a year now.
This....is....a....miracle...and....amazing.
anyone?
_________________
cassie:
Hi Blueeyes
I could have never been of service to others - I could barely drag myself out of bed. Today, I am thankful for the places my HP has guided me. angel Good thought provoking question - thanks.
hug
_________________
bry:
Blueeyes,
Six months ago today I was in a blackout. This had gone on for a week Straight. I thought I had called in sick at work for two days only to find I'd been missing in action for a week.
Tommorrow will be six months since I put down the drink and went to a meeting and asked for help.
Today I have God in my life, love, hope, and no desire to drink.
Six months ago I couldn't do anything. today every 24 hours has something and someone special in it. Very Happy
Thanks
Bry
_________________
scots bill:
HI BLUE
mi miricle is simply looking in the mirror and liking what is looking back. that had to be worked hard for i came through the doors with an unhealthy doze of selflothing,i tottaly accept the man in the mirror today
that and having my two daughters in recovery with me.
a grateful member of aa love peace and serenity
_________________
Essex:
HI. When I was drinking I would never felt at home with the person I am today. I would never have been able to say "I like me" that is a precious gift I have gained in sobriety.
_________________
Janbear:
My relationship with God is truly amazing to me. Thank God for the fellowship that taught me what it means to have a spiritual relationship with God.
Caring about others is also quite amazing, because i was all about me and my own selfish, self-centered desires.
_________________
troutfly1972:
I never could have seen that life was good. The ability to be honest and know the difference between honesty and dishonesty was shocking to me. Doing honest things doesn't really make you a honest person. I wasn't very honest with myself, not to mention other around me. I too, like what I see in the mirror everyday. Most importantly, I can interact with society not overwhelmed with my lies, decietfulness, and anger. The clouds have been lifted!!!!! bow
_________________
soberaddy:
Good morning all. Over 2 years ago it would have taken me over 2 hours to get ready to go somewhere. I never liked what I saw, I was either too fat, to thin, too much make up, not enough, I looked old and tired, the clothes weren't right....anyway you get the idea. Today, as most of us, I can say that I love what I see loooking back and I tell her that too everytime I see her. Plus I can get ready likidy split and no matter what I am me....a miracle!
Thanks for this post! ok cheer
Love
Anne hug hug smokin
_________________
prescott:
Good Morning, great topic. First of all I'm not in jail anymore and haven't been even asked for ID in over 7yrs. Went back to school at 50 and actually completed my courses on the honor roll. Stayed in one place long enough to get my phone listed in the phone book. Have a very good relationship with my mother (went 12 yrs. without speaking). Have a group of friends who I can really count on (who want nothing from me).
The list goes on and on and they are all gifts of recovery. hug angel hug
_________________
soberaddy:
Quote:
Stayed in one place long enough to get my phone listed in the phone book.
Laughing Mr. Green Ya I know what you mean John...I've never managed to accomplish that till I sobered up!
It certainly does get better. cheer cheer
Love
Anne grin hug hug
_________________
Janbear:
Quote:
good relationship with my mother
yeah, never thought it would be possible.
_________________
Misselle:
I have my self-respect back - and that is wonderful.
_________________
Baritone:
Joined: 15 Mar 2005
Posts: 365
Location: NC
PostPosted: 24 Apr 2005 05:57 pm Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
I can drive anywhere anytime and not be worried about gettting pulled over for DWI.
I can answer the phone or the door without worrying about how well i'm succeeding at pretending to be sober.
I can go to a restaurant and not even notice whether or not they serve liquor.
I can watch a movie or read a book and remember it all the next day.
Thanks for the topic!
- Jim
_________________
Misselle:
Joined: 15 Mar 2005
Posts: 316
Location: Texas
PostPosted: 24 Apr 2005 09:58 pm Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
Watching a movie is a good one too - it is amazing how many movies I have seen while drinking that I couldn't remember!
Not having to worry about having enough money to protect the supply is one too!
_________________
alex e.:
Moderator
Joined: 15 Mar 2005
Posts: 210
PostPosted: 25 Apr 2005 06:42 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
Very Happy
Today I wake up I love myself, and I have a relationship with my higher power. I have hope, I have friends who love and care about me. I have gratitude. And I am glad to live sober!!! ok
with much love your friend in recovery
Alex
_________________
bluidkiti:
Site Admin
Joined: 15 Mar 2005
Posts: 10498
PostPosted: 25 Apr 2005 07:05 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
Today I have God in my life, a wonderful relationship with my family and have many friends. Even though I have a nasty cold, I am sober and clean and have a clear head. I love who I am today. Very Happy
_________________
indigo:
Joined: 16 Mar 2005
Posts: 9
PostPosted: 25 Apr 2005 09:31 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
I am happy to be alive thought I'd never live to see my children grow up let alone see a grandchild.
I can hold my head up not walk on the other side of the street in case that someone I just saw wants a conversation and I'm too out of it.
Also that I am standing, walking and living and out of bed.
indigo
_________________
fibiray:
Joined: 16 Mar 2005
Posts: 515
Location: Australia Central Coast NSW
PostPosted: 26 Apr 2005 08:49 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
What I think is amazing is that I am an alcoholic who survived 11 years of drinking without killing myself. What is amazing is that I am an alcoholic that hasn't had a drink today, that I thought was impossible. Then there is the fact that when I came into aa I had not completed my high school education and today I have a background in arts. law and business. But the real miracle for me is that my thinking has changed enough to be less selfish and that I am capable today of helping and considering another human being.
chow chow Cool
_________________
Troll:
Joined: 15 Mar 2005
Posts: 55
Location: Toledo Oregon
PostPosted: 26 Apr 2005 09:47 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post Delete this post View IP address of poster
I am amazed that what you say counts almost more than what I might think. It is that simple premis of putting anyone or anything in front of what my own personal wants and needs are that amazes me. Of course, I did say "almost"....but it's progress and not perfection. I am amazed that there is roof over my head instead of the bridge....the words "if you only knew" pass through my cluttered mind, then I realize....you probably do know if you are alcoholic or an addict.