Need Some Advice

[donnabubble35]

Hi my name is Donna and I am a alcoholic.

I am back to work on Tuesday after being off since 28th September 2007. Before that day I had been sober for 2 years then I got drunk, at work, i was in a right state. I ended up walking out of work with a number of my work mates following me and going into the local pub to carry on getting more drunk. I didnt get very far cause after drinking a pint I fell down two steps and broke my ankle. So I ended up in hospital had to go to a disciplinary at work got sacked but I appealed and have managed to get my job back. I dont know how I am going to feel, I know I have changed I dont feel as confident anymore. My last drunk was 4th January, I am doing the steps and have a sponsor but I am scared. What do I say to them, I want to apologise but I did that before so why should they listen to me again. Any thoughts people would be much appreciated.

[admin]

I would talk with my sponsor about this and see what they suggest. I would also pray for guidance in the right thing to do.

[Bronx850]

:17:Hi Donna- Hi my name is Ed and I am an alcoholic my last drunk was Jan 12th 2007, I am well respected in my line of work within the mental health community where I work. I got drunk for a week and at the end, I found myself walking into the emergency room at the local hospital, which is part of the network of coworkers within my profession.
The humiliation I suffer within has helped me understand myself. Anyway I was out of work 4 days, you see I just got a promotion and was to start my new position on 13th of Jan of 2007. I was afraid and embarrass to return to work, my first day back I look so pale and white, because of all the self impose stress, the first co-worker that talk to me said “Ed we do care about you” these words hit me like a ton of bricks, and nothing else ever been said. Today I am sober and take it one day at a time. Guess what I just got another promotion. No problem is too big for God to handle.


“Step Three: “Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.

[Steve0672]

What you did (drunk at work etc) is what we do when drunk....
The remorse etc you feel is what we feel immediately afterward....
All of this is the nature of the disease....we are sick people trying to get well...
not "bad" people trying to get "good"

Take you God with you whenever you go about...You Are Not Alone!!
We will be there in the fellowship of the spirit....

Don't drink today...and keep trudging the road to happy destiny...this too will pass as you do the steps, go to meetings, work with your sponsor, trust God and carry the message of your recent experience to another alcoholic.

Bless you for your courage

[DryDaveC]

That feeling youve got happens to all "retreads", I wouldnt stress about it, just do what you know to do, and chalk it up as a learning experience, because some folks never make it back. I went through it also, and the guilt, shame and remorse were really bad, which was followed by restlessness, irritability & discontentedness of the dry-drunk, because I didnt do what I knew to do. I am now and have been much better since, and some lessons are learned harder than others. Definitely get a sponsor and do whatever you can to stay sober. If you ask me (and I am not trying to work your program), I'd say you jut got reminded that youre an alcoholic, and I would be grateful for being reminded of it.

Keep going to meetings and take it easy on yourself, remember, youre a patient, not a doctor and its ok not to know what to do sometimes, thats what the fellowship is for..

God bless :D

[sioux]

Maybe this is an op for a living amends. Often as it is stated in Doctor, Alcoholic, Addict, the world is judging us by our actions, not our intentions.

Suit up, show up and be the best you can be with this new opportunity. The confidence will return, in time, for you and for your co-workers and supers. You have a lot of power to change this situation.