I tried to identify why

[Montauktammy]

Hi all now I had asked you all a question a while ago go here is my next. Why do I get so grumpy when I am not progressing in my step work like I think I should.? I found my self not wanting to talk to any one for a long time and not calling my sponsor. So I tried to identify why I do this and remembered that my 3rd sep had been sitting since new years and called my sponsor to go over it so I could move on to my fourth. So is it the fact that I am not being fed in all areas of my life when I am not progressing the way I think I should ?? And then the next one how can I get enough sleep when I work a full time job have a 12 year old child and make at least 5 meetings a week? I keep getting sick I think it is from lack of sleep.
Thank you Tammy:5:

[barbie25]

Hey you stop getting down on yourself! We all progress excatly the why we should. We all work the step in our time. Don't push yourself. I was pushing myself and getting stressed, and I found my self not doing anything in my program. As far as the working full time and raising a child, I hear you sister. I do that to. Take a nap when you can, take your vitimans and eat well!!! But most of all don't get down on yourself!!!!!!!!!!

[dalin]

I hear you,and sort of understand your point.
For me tho,the steps are an active process.
Pray about it...but move your feet while
you pray.
Every now and then I have to slow down
on my meeting attendance,and live life.
Like do one less meeting a week,pray alot,
and surrender.
Hang in there.
I need you in my recovery!!!!

[anniemac]

Hey Tammy ~

Well, I can't say why you feel that way, but I can tell you why I do....I'm a perfectionist and have ridiculously high standards for myself. Basically, as ridiculous as this sounds, on some level I do not accept that I am human. What's the expression? That if my friends treated me the way I treat myself, I wouldn't be friends with them! I have very little tolerance for my imperfections and it is daily work for me to accept me just where I am right now.

As for the sleep situation, I absolutely need 8 hours a night. If I get less, I can not think straight and truly hallucinate (seeing things out of the corner of my eyes that aren't there, etc.). I get up at 6 and am asleep before 10. I get to 4-5 meetings a week, I work full time, and I go to school part time, and have a daughter. One way I do it, is that 2 of my meetings are on weekend mornings, so I still have my whole day ahead of me afterwards yet still get my meetings in. So some weeks I only go out 2 nights during the week. I just can not be everywhere at once. Can you get in 2 of your 5 on the weekend? How about on your lunch hour at work? Around here we also have 6:30 AM meetings, so if I don't go to the gym in the morning, I have the option of getting a meeting in the morning.

It's not always easy, balancing everything in our lives. Sometimes, as Dalin said, I just need to skip a meeting. I love meetings, but I'll tell ya, it's not the meetings that keep me sober; it's the foundation of the Program (the Steps) in my life that keep me sober.

[Prescott]

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