How have you changed in your recovery

[Montauktammy]

Even the things I thought I wanted has changed in recovery. I was mean hearted when I came in the rooms I did not care for any one at all, I was bitter at the world to the point I told a meeting off cause I could no longer use and not know it was the wrong thing to do, now I don't want to use any thing and work hard on not picking up even behaviors. I care about other to the point that I know that enabling them is bad for them and work on not doing that. I don't want to use my child to keep me from people, I want to be good for her and share life with her. I can't do the wrong thing and make feel right today.

[dragonflygrl]

My insides match my outsides today! What a wonderful gift!! The desire to use has been lifted and my life is a plethera of sucesses. I am blessed and not a day goes by that I don't know that and feel that. I guess that is one of the biggest changes for me... I feel today. And I don't try to not feel either. I know today that feelings come and go and that this too shall pass. I know how to love others, but mostly I know how to love SELF!! Another invaluable gift straight from the 12steps!:12:

[admin]

I have God in my life today. I love who I am today. I love and care about others today. When I hear someone talk about the nice person I am today or kind person I am today I think yeah today I am like that but there was a time when I wasn't such a nice or kind person. A time when all I cared about was getting my next drink. I didn't have many friends. No one wanted to be around me. The words that came out of my mouth would have probably made a sailor blush. I was full of revenge and self hatred. My motto was Payback is he'' but revenge is a S.O.B. And you can bet if I felt anyone had done me wrong I was going to get them back for it. Revenge almost killed me physically a few times. Today I am so very grateful to God and the program of AA for my life. I have family and friends today. People want to be around me today. I am able to give love and receive love. Thank you God. :195:

[janbear]

Clean and sober through the 12-steps i have the ability today to take responsiblity for my own attitudes and actions. I was notorious for blaming the world for why i had problems and did for awhile in recovery, it was not something i easily learned to do. The program also taught me in a big way that this world doesnt revolve around me today. Learning to love and care for others gets me out of my self. In my addiction i was extremely self-centered, selfish, self-focused. Again, that defect of character just didnt disappear when i walked through the doors of recovery. Recovery is a process. Today i am grateful for the resources in Recovery that daily improve my life, above all i am grateful for God. Thanks for letting me share.