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lifeisgoodx10
03-03-2008, 04:21 PM
Hi all,
I entered into a marriage just over a year ago not long after having left a ten year marriage. I was divorced in October, met new husband in November and married in March. We were practically inseperable after our first meeting. Anyway, he is very jeolous of my family (parents etc.) who live about four hours from us. He does not associated with his family at all and does not understand that I have a very close relationship with mine. I have suggested that I go visit alone if he is not interested and he does not want me to do that either. We did go Christmas Eve and he got drunk. I was very embarrassed and let down. He has no interest in forming relationships with any of my family. His father was very abusive to him growing up and I think he sees my father as a threat. It's almost as if he wants conflict with them to prove that family is only out for themselves and they do not care about me. I cannot believe that I have let myself be alianated like this. I moved four hours away from family and friends, got a new job, we live in the country so we are by nature alienated in a since. I have no friends to speak of except at work. Which I am also having a problem with because I work nights and I am afraid he will cheat on me. Rediculous huh? I hate that I have allowed myself to regress into this total co dependent relationship. I do love him but give me a break!!!

thereishope
03-03-2008, 04:50 PM
Dear lifeisgood,
Well im really sorry you have to be going through that and i wanted to let you know that i really think your husband has some controlling issues not jelousy and that can be a very serious issue down the road.It also seems your not giving yourself enough time to be healthy inside you first before looking for another relationship.I am an alcholic and an addict and ive also had some co-depentant issues.One thing i heard in a meeting once that gave me something to think about and id like to share it with you. The statement was "I would rather be healthy alone than really sick with someone else cause then ill never get better inside me".
I really wish you blessings on your journey and i pray it gets better for you.I know that that statement really gave me something to ponder.I hope i didnt over step my bounds but i just want you to know that i care and i hope i can give you some encouragement cause it seems you really need some right about now.
love your friend corey

lifeisgoodx10
03-03-2008, 06:09 PM
Thanks for your input. I have said that myself....I'd rather be alone than be with someone in a bad relationship/toxic relationship. There are so many factors that I could go into within me concerning this relationship. Mostly stem from my insecurity or my low self esteem etc. On one though this is the relationship I've always wanted. Again, thanks for your insight.