Here to really try and beat this thing

[twood]

Well hello all, this is my first night on here and my first post. After a few long years of being addicted to alcohol i finally have admitted it to myself. Its funny i always knew i had a problem, and i could progressivly see my actions get more strange and out of control but yet i always thought deep down i had control. I am here to admit for the first time to other people and most importantly myself that i dont have control and that its time to fix this thing not for one day or one week but forever. The alcohol has opened the door to so many other problems and to be honest the weight i am carrying on my back of regrets, embarrassment, and a ton of other negative emotions has become to much. I am here to seek any help i can find and am excited to take the journey. Thanks everyone for welcoming me

[admin]

:67: twood! :17: Glad to have you join us here. Please make yourself at home. I do suggest that you attend local AA meetings. They helped me tremendously in getting sober and staying sober. Please feel free to ask any questions you may have and to continue to share with us here. We are here for you. :42:

[twood]

I appreciate you welcoming me, i do have one questions which i did list in greater depth but i must have done it one of the other forums on here. My question is here on my first night how to best find the courage and whatever else it takes to make a truly dry house. I am having some trouble pooring all my liqour down the sink especially since i have so much

Any advice for this first step because for some reason it really is creating problems for me

[admin]

If you can't do it then you can always get someone else to do that for you. I suggest praying for strength also. I will pray for you also. :195:

[admin]

You can also pour it out then check in with me here. I'll be online for a bit.

[twood]

Thats very thoughtful thank you i appreciate it.

[twood]

Thanks blu for kinda helping me nudge myself on that one tonight. I just put some trust in my faith and did it. And quite honestly as hard as it was, it was also a big relief once it was done. I think i can go to sleep now thanks.

Hey thats day 1, bring on day 2 :):195::195::195:

[admin]

I am still here. :42: :195:

[admin]

I am so very happy for you and proud of you. Way to go. :29: I'll still be online for a bit. Sweet dreams! Congrats on day 1! :29: :42:

[hurls]

Twood, when I first entered the AA program I spoke about control. The control I had when I was drinking, controling, assuring there would be a drink when I wanted one, controling that I had 2 before the public saw me have 1,eating breath mints to hide the smell of alcohol, slugging down one to have another, control, control, control!!!!! Completely out of control! The only thing I need to control now is that I don't pick up that first drink...we cannot fool ourselves in to thinking we can have 1, because we never will, i have had enough slips in this 9 month journey to sobriety to know that what the sober old timers tell us "it's the first drink that gets you drunk." There is nothing sweeter than waking up in the morning alcohol free. Remember alcohol wants you to be oblivious to life & dead. Find AA meetings, I found a small discussion group in my area where I was encouraged to share my thoughts. Meetings are where you find people like us who want to help another alcoholic stay sober, with the trust in a Higher Power, one day at a time.:42: Best of luck...it's not easy!