hey

[t3chgodd3ss]

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hey all
I am Tamsin - 44, female
- new to this - new to the fact that i have a problem - living the definition of insanity right now and i have to get off the ride 'cause right now i feel like a runaway train.
words of wisdom welcomed - help me

[elise]

Hey tasmin, i am elise, 45 female new to this chat just wondering if there is anyone online

[Nodak]

Hey Tamsin, WELCOME!!!! Glad you came..

Words of Wisdom?? There is alot here.. Reach out! Read, Ask, Journal, it all helps.

My soberiety date is 4/29/08. Get a AA or NA book and read it. Get some books from Hazelden and read em. I picked up one called first year sobriety by Kettleback (spelling??) Picked up an NA Book and I am devouring it. I am 43 and been copping a buzz since 79/80. But no more...

Reach out to someone in one of the programs if you know one. Go to a meeting, just doent be alone. Lot a good folk, reading and support. Here you wont be alone...

Just jump off that train, it is going to crash!!!!!

Glad your here..:29::85::29::85::1::1:

Rod

[t3chgodd3ss]

hi rod - thanks for the info definitely words of wisdom - thanks for the book suggestions - I had to chuckle when I saw what you said - copping a buzz since 79-80 - that's me too! high school - dazed & confused - however my "little minor addiction" is starting to mess up my life and i have too much to lose right now! just not sure where to start - i am not sober yet - but i flushed the rest of my "LMA" down the toilet today so i no longer have anything and i just need to know what to do first?
still clickity clacking down the runaway train track
Tamsi
or sinny as my friends call me - ha!

[t3chgodd3ss]

hi elise - thanks for the hello - what are you here for? are you new to this like me?
tamsin or sinny

[Nodak]

Sinny,

Hah, bet you got an aversion to velour and faux silk shirts too!!!

Heres how I got to where I am today... I was in the same spot as you basically a bit more than week ago. Had my last beer 4/25 and my last pill on 4/29. Like you, the train was hauling keister down the track. I've have basically been high since Van Halen first went platinum.

Keep posting and reading this site.... Tomorrow, run down to Barnes and Noble, go the the addiction/recovery section, grab a couple books and find one or two you like and start reading.. Oh yeah, grab a big Starbucks or Caribou... :11::11: And try to stay away from anything that may trigger you firing one up.. Go for a walk, go get a ice cream cone.... You can do it.....:29::wink::29::idea:

Again, at the very least, hang out here and we'll get ya going in the right direction. You can do it.. Your just as tired of the green gorilla on your back as I was... Time to kick his keister...

Rod

[thereishope]

Hello tamsin, elise, sinny
Welcome to all of you, its nice you are here at CRF, this is a wonderful place to find some support and the truth of our addictions, its a nice addition to meetings and sponcers. I am also a recovering alcholic/addict, began at 12 and ended at 31, my road to recovery began aug,31,2003. I'm a 35yr old female. So i and all of us here at CRF would all like to wish you much love and many blessings on your journey of recovery and discovery

[t3chgodd3ss]

hey rod
thanks for another funny reply:)
velour definitely - not so sure about faux silk - not sure i have experienced it.
and green gorilla is a good way to describe my monkey - but i am only hours straight and trying not to think about it at all. i am going to try to do the online meeting tonight because there are not any meetings in my area tonight.
what do you do when all of your friends are partiers? don't know why it affects me and doesn't affect them??? i told my best friend that i was going to do this and he laughed

i am checking out the bookstore tonight - that way i can keep out of the temptation - and there is a coffee bar in there - i guess coffee isn't as bad as the green

keister? are you from the midwest? that's a wisconsin word

[t3chgodd3ss]

thanks for the kind words thereishope - i need them right now!

[thereishope]

Hello,
Well i like you description of the green gorilla,:lol: that was great.
Im sorry your best friend laughed at you, that wasn't nice, its nice to hear you are taking the right steps toward you recovery prosses and that is a wonderful thing so please dont let the laughter deter you away from help. In all honesty when i began my recovery prosses i lost all my "friends" that i thought i had and realizing that none of them had my best intrestes at heart but oh sure they were right there to party with me as long as i had the drugs or booze but boy when i was out "poof" there everyone went.
Sure it hurt and i mean really hurt to realize they werent my friends and here i sat alone but the more i held on to my soberity and stuck with it and the program and getting myself healthier and realy begining to like me, i found a new and loveable me, i found a lovely recovery program, i found real friends that had my best intrests at heart and they actually really cared about "me". WOW was that a revelation and such a wonderful one.
So its gonna be ok, and be patient it will all turn out and one thing i can promise is that if you stick with this recovery program, meetings and get a sponcer, you WILL NOT be dissapointed, you will be AMAZED. So i wish you the best my friend and i wish you much love.

[Nodak]

Sinny,

Okay, if you saw Saturday Night Fever, you've seen the shirt I am referring too.. Us guys all got slicked up like Tony.... (I know you saw the movie.......) Those are some embarassing pix to show the kids....

How do I stay away from my friends that indulge? Easy, found new friends.. No, really its not that easy to shy away from them, after all they are your friends... But stop and think, if they are truly your friends, they'll support you, respect your decision and give you the time and room you need. If they cant join you on your journey, it is time to move on...

Your call Dear! You gotta ask yourself what you want to do and thats: A - Hang out with friends who laugh at you because you shared a sincere intimate desire to change and then asked you if you had any papers????? Or B - New friends that will be there for you and support you thru both the bad times and the good times, understand what your dealing with because they are there dealing with it themselves..?? Your call...??

Sorry Sinny, but I left Cheech and Chong long time ago... All my past smoking friends are either dead, burnt out or freaked out. My drinking friends are either, dead or still sitting at the bar talking about the last keg party out at the gravel pit. However, a couple sobered up b4 me and we are super tite..

I am also very lucky in the regards, I have not hung with those crowds for almost 20 yrs. Been an upstanding citizen, productive member of society, held several management positions in a high psi industry and currently have a kick butt job that I have had for 7 yrs and expect to retire from in 25-30yrs. I am blessed with an awesome wife and 2 wonderful teenage daughters. I have been a closet user of anything I could talk my way outta on a drug test since 1989.. If I'd hung with the folks I used to run with... I'd be dead....... And the direction I was headed, I was going to get there anyways....

Bare minimum, stay on the board and read.. Go to the bookstore and get fired up on some hi-test Starbucks Sumatra.. I have found journaling has been of great help and doing what I am doing now, sharing this info is great treatment for me.. There is a Journalling sub forum here, go start something.... And watch it pour outta ya.

Hang in there you can do it..... Gotta run and bye the way, I am not a cheesehead!!! I am from the land of Lefs'e, Lutifisk, Ole and Lena!!!!!! Yah, You Betcha!!

In your corner...

Rod

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[t3chgodd3ss]

hi nodak & bluidtiki - thanks for sending words of wisdom - especially u nodak - and now that i am not so foggy i actually got your name along with your explanation of where you are from :) yah - i'm gonna call you fargo instead :)
i am still clean - 3 and a half days!!! and doing ok and have been resisting temptation from friends actually i have been staying away from said friends. my best friend is not too happy with me but he is just being immature. i made an online meeting and i wonder if they are all the same? i also downloaded the recovery journal software although i am not so sure how to use it exactly? i still have to make it to the bookstore, fargo but i'll update you as things happen

[Rockin Big Daddy]

You can choose to be happy or you can choose to be miserable. Which would you rather be?
You can choose to make productive and purposeful use of the moments in this day. Or you can choose to let the time slip away and be left with nothing but regret.

Life is what you decide you are going to make of it. What have you decided to make of the possibility-filled moment that is right now?

You can complain that it's all so very unfair, but all that will accomplish is to bring you down even more. Or, you can fully accept life as it is and then experience the genuine satisfaction of making your way forward in spite of the obstacles.

You can choose to hide behind excuses or you can open yourself up to the richness of life. You can decide to make the most of whatever comes your way, and know how great it feels to be fully alive and engaged in your world.

No matter what has come before, life in this moment is what you decide to make it. Consider all the possibilities, and then choose the life that is you.:29:

-- Ralph Marston

[t3chgodd3ss]

hey big daddy - thanks for that -it's beautiful and truly words of wisdom - who is Ralph or is that you? it's amazing to me that what you say above is really that simple. i don't want to be unhappy - but trapped in a marijuana haze i was unhappy - i am clearer and healing each second i stay away from the green demon.
tamsin