janbear
06-23-2006, 06:45 PM
A PERSON OF WORTH ~
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"It is funny about life: if you refuse
to accept anything but the very best you
will very often get it."
W. Somerset Maugham
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Upon entering recovery, I found it
ironic, even strange, that I was so very
good at taking care of others and
helping them secure the help that they
needed, yet often in my life I have not
done this for myself. I would grow
depressed and very frozen in anger,
grief, and fear. Why wasn't I ever able
to care properly for myself? At what
point did I begin to expect the worst as
my own allotment in life?
It is possible that I dreamed of a
"rescue" or an intervention of some kind
that would "save me." It is likely that
my Higher Power knew of my tendencies
for magical thinking. He caught my
attention by the introduction of someone
who knew of a program that would point
me in a realistic direction. In this
program, I would be taught to take small
actions -- "One day at a time" -- that
would encourage and re-build my
shattered self-esteem. I now am in
possession of a wonderful program that
has given me tools for recovery and
change so that I can learn to treat
myself as well as I treat others.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I no longer accept anything but the
best, as it will indirectly affect my
recovery. This is my new mindset: that I
am a person of worth.
:~*~
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~
"It is funny about life: if you refuse
to accept anything but the very best you
will very often get it."
W. Somerset Maugham
:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~:. .:~*~
Upon entering recovery, I found it
ironic, even strange, that I was so very
good at taking care of others and
helping them secure the help that they
needed, yet often in my life I have not
done this for myself. I would grow
depressed and very frozen in anger,
grief, and fear. Why wasn't I ever able
to care properly for myself? At what
point did I begin to expect the worst as
my own allotment in life?
It is possible that I dreamed of a
"rescue" or an intervention of some kind
that would "save me." It is likely that
my Higher Power knew of my tendencies
for magical thinking. He caught my
attention by the introduction of someone
who knew of a program that would point
me in a realistic direction. In this
program, I would be taught to take small
actions -- "One day at a time" -- that
would encourage and re-build my
shattered self-esteem. I now am in
possession of a wonderful program that
has given me tools for recovery and
change so that I can learn to treat
myself as well as I treat others.
ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .
I no longer accept anything but the
best, as it will indirectly affect my
recovery. This is my new mindset: that I
am a person of worth.
:~*~