Scully1280k
10-01-2008, 04:22 PM
:195: Hey everyone, my name is Kathy and I am a greatful recovering addict. I have been in OA for the past year and a half, and just started giving away my 5th step! It's been a good journey into recovering, but it can be very difficult at times as I remove more and more layers. I have gone through the pink cloud early on, and just got through with a difficult situation with one of my fellow OA'ers who was my sponsor. She and I became really good friends while she was sponsoring me - which ended up becoming a big problem. People tried to tell me that it was not such a good idea to have both of those things going on at the same time. She has a lot of recovery, and is someone I highly respect and admire. We had/have become like sisters, hung out, did things with each others families, etc. but the sponsorship/friendship thing became tainted in a way that was blocking both of us from our separate recoveries. She had issues with boundaries that she was not being honest about and being the oblivious addict that I can sometimes be, had no idea how she was feeling because she wasn't able to. Anyway, it's a long story - and I am happy to say that we have cleared the air between us. She is no longer my sponsor and our friendship remains, albeit a different but good friendship.The funny thing about addicts is that they always have such a skewed point of view on things sometimes, but the blessing has been that she and I have managed to work thru some crap while practicing program. It was really painful for me to have reached this place - and yet my program really is progressing more since she severed our sponsor/sponsee relationship. They say that nothing happens in God's world by mistake. I was able to get a new lesson out of this whole situation for myself and maintain a level of dignity. Sometimes my character defects show up and I am completely unaware still. I guess you can say that I still have a long way to go in my recovery but I am coming along. Slowly but surely. I pray for the day when my emotional recovery is strong and all of the promises come true for me, and are solid in how I feel about myself. Anyway, that's all I have. Glad to have found this forum. I have so much more to ask questions about still, but I will leave it here for now :15:
Peace,
Kat
Peace,
Kat