Noob here

[DrumRobC]

Hello,

I'm Rob, alcoholic. I'm 32 and living with my parents. I lost my job, relationship, car/license and am checking in to a chemical dependency/mental illness inpatient program. I'm extremely nervous because I have no idea what to expect. I just know I need to stop drinking because it has been a huge downward spiral in the past year, and it's only making my depression and sense of worthlessness/hopelessness worse.

I haven't been spiritual for quite some time and really didn't know what to think about this whole 'God' thing - I'm beginning to see that it doesn't have to be THE God, but it can be whatever power is greater than myself; i.e., my A.A. group. So GOD can be "Group Of Drunks" or "Good Orderly Direction". I've also been reading about approaching the 12 steps from a Buddhists perspective, and it's quite insightful so far. Either way, I know I need to basically surrender myself to this disease and begin my road to recovery. Thanks for reading.

ROB

[Rich75]

Hello Rob and Welcome :smile: At rehab they strap you down and they don't feed you or care after you.


No NO I'm JUST PLAYING !!! In rehab you'll get all the attention you'll need to stop you from drinking. It's a comforting place where you'll feel safe and worry free. You'll get to meet some people that will help you along as well. I had a great experience while I was there and most of all I received the starting tools for my recovery there. As Far as God it's like you said. All it is A power Greater than yourself who ever you choose to work for you. Thank you.:D

[yukonm]

Congratulations on your decision to seek help.
:329:

[thereishope]

Hello Rob,
Welcome to CRF, its nice to meet you.
So very glad you are here with us. Theres lots of support and friends here for you and we need you as well so please keep coming back. We would all like to wish you much love and many blessings on your journey of recovery and discovery.

[letgo]

Welcome Rob, I am also new here. CRF is a really great place for support and help and I hope you enjoy it as much as I am. Sometimes it helps our recovery to go into rehab. To be physically removed for a while from where we are living and or using. Yes it's scary but you already seem to have the courage to want to change. You can do this if you really want to. In Fellowship, letgo.

[DrumRobC]

Thanks everybody who responded. I'm now living in a half-way house and couldn't be happier with my decision. I've really learned to let go and surrender myself to this disease. I'll be celebrating 60 days sober on Sunday; the longest time of sobriety for me in the last 12 years, and I'm only 32 yrs. old.

The ability to be honest with myself and others (I mean REALLY honest!) has really been the cornerstone of my success in recovery thus far. That's the best piece of advice I'd have for anybody looking at rehab or sobriety in general - I was a self-will run riot until I surrendered myself and decided to live life on life's terms, not my own.

Much love

[francie21805]

Thank you for sharing with us!! :42: We all help each other!!

[thereishope]

CONGRATULATIONS!!! On your 60 days tomorrow. Thats wonderful!!!!!!!!!

[mandypandy]

Hi, Rob. I can totally relate. While I haven't lost my job yet, I have changed jobs so many times and only seem to be able to have unhealthy relationships (go figure). I am eight days sober through AA, and I am more and more scared everyday as the fog begins to lift and I am forced to deal with feelings and situations that I'd rather not. For a long time I have contemplated whether I had a drinking problem but haven't been truly ready to surrender. For the past week, I have admitted but can't say I have accepted that I am an alcoholic until today. It took getting into an argument with some drunk college girls at a sushi restaurant tonight to really make me accept that I am an alcoholic in every way, even when I am drinking ice water! I had a bad day and was going there to meet a drinking friend and hoping I could stay sober even though I knew I might very well drink. After I was sufficiently ashamed, angry, and feeling like a victim, I left. I do not think it is an accident that I experienced this tonight. And thank God my "friend" had gone to the restaurant across town...I surrender.

Whew...sorry I rambled, everyone.