about to go into rehab

[kessa]

hi, i am new and am going into rehab on the 21st, i am very scared. I can handle being away from my husband, terrible withdrawel, what i am afraid of is how do i live without my precious pills. Its as if i am defined as a human by them, i have been on them for so many years. One day at a time advice will not sufffice. I need real answers. Thank you:21::21:

[letgo]

Hi Kessa,
I can't answer your question "how do I live without my precious pills" other than with what I know.
That is to say, you CAN live a full life without pills and booze ONE DAY AT A TIME -
I do through the rooms of the AA and or NA, with a program for daily living and the support of other alkies/addicts who have all been there. Rehab is scary but find the courage to be strong and stick it out. You are doing this for yourself, because you deserve a better life.
I have been in rehab and it was the hardest thing I have ever done but I learnt so much about my illness, got so much help and support and a wonderful kick start to my recovery. I went into rehab after four years of relapsing. I'd had enough. But it is the rooms and not a stint in rehab that have kept me sober (and clean) since then.
If I can do it, YOU can do this. Wishing you all the best, In Fellowship.

[francie21805]

Hello and welcome kessa. I'm so glad you're here. For me, I had taken my drinking to a point that I wanted (had the desire) to stop, but did not know how. I was a complete slave to it. I didn't and couldn't do anything with out it. From a pit, so dark, I can't even put into words, I cried out to my God for help. "God I can't do this anymore, please help me". I, then got the help I needed through the rooms of A.A and I too have done it One Day At A Time. Today, I couldn't do with out my "precious" program and the people in it. I also would have never believed life could be so good.

I hope you will continue to come and share! And please check out all the wonderful information this site has to offer.

We'll be here for you and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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[Faith92208]

Reaching out to get help takes a lot of courage! I am proud of you! I will be praying for you and know that all of us here care about you. Keep us posted!

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[gettinfree]

Hi Kessa...yea I know...One Day at a Time, seems to symplify it. All of us here have felt what you are feeling right now to some degree or another. What we did was Hang In There with people who seemed to have felt the way we did. My first days, I couldn't amagine any body feeling as bad and scared as I did. And the happy people I was going to for help saying, Easy Does It, Let go and Let God, maybe just understand what I was going through...It takes some time...soon I was understanding that they DID fell like I did; and they hung in there long enough for recovery to begin. Hang in there Kessa...Do it One Day at a Time, ( 1 minute if that's all you can handle). Easy Does It...It WILL get better...Keep Comin Back...With Love...Your Friend in Recovery...Mike :42:

[CD BUCKBERRY]

:D:29:Kessa,Go into rehab and detox with the attitude that you are getting a new way of life out of this.You will be free from addiction.You have to train your mind not to think about those pills after you get clean from them.There is a life after drugs I know.It took me 38 years to fing that out.It was pure hell most of my using life.I am glad to be free of addiction,but you can never let your guard down it will sneak back in and fester it's self in you again.You have to stay away from anyone you used with.Keep Coming Back,It Works If You Want It.:D:29:

[kessa]

You all seem like wonderful people, and yes, please include me in your prayers. I have to admit I have has serius reservations about the na/aa program. Lately the have been a new crop of doc,s whith differnt programs, they say the stastitcic for A.A is 5%, and that its program is in the dark ages. Well not thr program itself but some of the rehabs, the ones that try to punish you out of your addictions like making you scub the floors rather than educate you, and have ththerepist availible, i have been searching for months for a rehab that will take me based on what i make, detox me in a safe manner and provide education and therapy not only for me but for my kids, and husband. I think we can all agree that you can not punish anyone out of thier addiction. We have lived with tha threat of death, jail,alienation of our friends and family amd cleaning toilets or mopping floors and having sit ins, where you sit all day in the same place and dont do anything but that for a day, and yes i spoke with some rehabs that are that way. I finally found one that is great and will do all the things i need for a price i can afford. No insurance can mean death to an addict if they cant find proper help. this is why i am going on the 21st, there is a waiting list, but thank god i found one. god bless you all and i wish and will pray for all of you for your contiued sobriety.

[annalittlebit]

You will be in my Prayers for sure!!!!!!!!! As far as rehab--I'm glad you arre going--That was the best thing I ever did---It gave me a foundation that I constantly build upon----I saw many people who--in spite of themselves---found a new life which began there!!!!!! I wish you the best!!!!!!!!!

[Rich75]

Hello and Welcome Kessa :67: It seems that you did the starting footwork of finding what you need as far as a rehab. Now let the rehab do for you. Give it a chance. Be willing to do what ever it takes to stay drug or alcohol free. One day at a time. Please keep us posted. I'll be looking foward to hear from you when you get out.:42:

[admin]

the ones that try to punish you out of your addictions like making you scub the floors

Never heard that one before. Always a first time for everything.

Now I have heard my grand sponsor share that she scrubbed the floor when she was getting sober but she did so because she was craving a drink real bad and doing some type of physical work always helped her work through the cravings. I have done the same when I have had cravings or thoughts to drink in the past - done some type of physical work to help with it so it would pass. It helped me to keep busy doing something. You think may be that's why they would have you scrub the floor to help you work through a craving instead of it being punishment?

I pray all goes well with you going into rehab. I do suggest keeping an open mind about things and please know that we are here for you and will be there with you in rehab also in thought and prayers. :42:

[tonyb]

Hi Kessa , you can live life without pills, in fact life without substances is a whole lot better, rehab is fantastic.Its not easy but the best advice I can give you is to SURRENDER COMPLETELY. Try living your life a different way, give it a real chance,I did,my way didn't work, for me this way does.Stick with the fellowship, do the suggested things, theres a beautiful life outside of active addiction lets be honest its pretty crappy on the inside.I wish you all the best

[zoomie]

(((((((((((Huggs)))))))))) and good luck!