prescription drugs anyone?

[kessa]

I am not tryng to exclude anyone from responding to this thread, I would like to talk to some people who have had problems with pills, i have a problem with xanax, soma,vicodin and a few others. Bieing in denial is alot easier when you have a docter giving you your drugs. I am guilty of having put myself on a pedistal, thinking i am better than an alcoholic, crack addict and so on, even though i was getting completly wasted and not following the prescription label, taking my drugs up in a week instead of a month, anyone out there can relate?:idea:

[admin]

I can tell you I had an aunt who was addicted to prescription drugs right on up into her 70's. She died a few years ago and she looked terrible. Bless her heart - I was at a wake for another aunt (her sister) and I saw her which was a few months before she died and hugged her and she was nothing but skin and bones. She knew about me and she knew I knew about her. As I hugged her, I was praying and she asked me to please keep praying for her and I did. I don't know for sure if she was able to stop before she died or not because she kept to herself alot but I hope she was able to. I live out of town from where she lived. She wouldn't answer her phone and wouldn't let anyone in her house. Seriously, one of her sons, who lived in the yard next to her, had to crawl through a window to get to her one time when she was passed out on the floor. She wouldn't let either of her 2 boys have a key to the house. They wouldn't do anything about her because she had in her will if they tried to put her anywhere to get help then they would receive nothing. It was sad.

[nicknoo]

Dear tessa yes i was addicted to prescribed drugs for 10 years,and yes i can relate to your confusion and rationalistion of taking perscribed drugs.Its not unknow that us addicts will compare ourselves with whom we belive is worse than us..this of course fuels the denial that we have addiction problems aswell,all part and part of being an addict and this disease is the only disease that will tell you ,you havnt got a problem.My step one was very hard concerning perscribed drugs,i couldnt see how i was powerless over them,until one day i woke up and had this thought....what would i do if the world blew up,which would i look for first,the chemist or my kids..well the answer to that question was the start of my accetpance..i was powerless over drugs ..including perscribed drugs,,,,had kept me locked up for yrs and also i was aware i couldnt go any where unless i knew i had the drugs with me.And yes..i would never ever keep to the written dose...i jsut never had enough cos when i started i couldnt stop...hence my powerlessness.If you would like to talk more i would be more thatn welcome to share with you my experiance of recovery concerning all of this..good on ya Tessa..hugs nicci

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[zoomie]

My mother was addicted to any type of pill she could get her hands on. She tried to OD a few times on the pills because she was depressed. I'm sure the pills where making her depressed. From a child's view point it was horrible to watch my mom go to the hospital because she OD. I remember being just 4 and her having cut her wrist because she was popping pills and it made her crazy. Then at 17 she accidently ODed and we had to carry her out to the car to take her to the hospital. She was in a coma for a few days. It's no fun watching a parent who is addicted. I swore I'd never take pills the way she did,so I just drank. My kids never saw me falling down drunk,but the addcition was still there. I had to drink to fuction or to relax. Booze is legal just like prescription pills and there are not as many lables on us then there would be if we took illegal drugs,but again the addciton is just the same. We crave, we use, we screw up... and hopefully we seek help.

[jordans23233]

im just coming back after a relapse on prescription drugs. I was being prescribed adavant, valum, xanax, norcos and i used that as an excuse to go back into using iv heroin. however at the time i used the doctor giving me them as an excuse and i abused hose pills for my anxiety. to me its just not worth it i spent so much time making excuses for myself and why i used them i know now that there is no excuse i just wanted to get high i didnt want to feel what i was feeling i wanted a quick fix. so i spent about the last week detoxing from heroin and opiates and it was one of the hardest things ive ever done in my life. i guess the way i feel now though is a drug is a drug is a drug if that makes sense to you. anything that alters my mind or my mood i cant use in a non addictive manner

[nobenzo]

I am just one year out, Halloween, from getting off lots of perscription drugs main ones being Zanax and adderall. Had no help from docs(wanted me to take more), and they were ruining my life, turned on me. For 6 months did not leave home/bed and couldnt function, much. Had support from family and husband, who really took brunt of storm as I had no professional help, b/ they wanted me to up dose. I had become so agitated and paranoid, I had to do something, as I felt as if going nuts! Now recovery was no picnic, but I am christian and know God made me and would restore me if I was faithful and patient on waiting him , that was the ONLY truth I could believe in, so went with it. With his help every hour I was closer to " me "again. I remember one day, laying on ground, kicking/pounding floor, and asking my husband to please drown me. I dont mean to sound scarey, but to let world know, God restores his own just for the asking, patience and faithfulness. Thru this, I was either going to be bitter or better, and chose latter. Know there is hope and a way out :)
It has been almost 1 year now and I can function normally 5 out of 7 days(yipeee)! Hope for full complete recovery 18 months -2 year mark.
Prayers to all here, and blessings for recovery, it can be done!!What Hope!!

amanda

[paulm]

I had the obsession to use pills, I wrote a several weeks back, I was prescribed ViKEs after oral surgery, took them as prescribed, but had a issue following a root canal that was done a few days after that , I needed another script and that one really left me in shambles, i got angry, irritable, restless, with help from people in the meetings I got the courage up to flush the Pills I had minor pain after the first few days, and a monster urge to use dope. for the pain it killed, it drove me half crazy dealing with the obsession and mental masturbation of should i take another one now, or wait until it's really betwee 4-6 hours so I don't feel like I'm relapsing.
I have needed drugs (medication) while in recovery before, and have had some success, with the help of others , sticking to the labels. I may not be so lucky next time I have a disease that wants me back I have a body that craves what every makes my mind escape. I thank god for the awareness, but I hate this disease.

[CD BUCKBERRY]

:29::29:kessa,Just keep trying,you have admitted you had a problem with the pills just like the other drugs.The most important part of getting clean is not hiding that you may still have an addiction.You are doing a lot better from when I read your first few posts.Good work girl,keep up good work.:29::29:

[andream]

I am not tryng to exclude anyone from responding to this thread, I would like to talk to some people who have had problems with pills, i have a problem with xanax, soma,vicodin and a few others. Bieing in denial is alot easier when you have a docter giving you your drugs. I am guilty of having put myself on a pedistal, thinking i am better than an alcoholic, crack addict and so on, even though i was getting completly wasted and not following the prescription label, taking my drugs up in a week instead of a month, anyone out there can relate?:idea:

yeahhhhhh ...dec 07 i went to the doctor & told them i had a problem with oxys,roxys,& lortabs(its all the same just diffrent strengths)& they put me on suboxone so i wud not get sick 2 8mg pills a day it is almost a year later & i am still taking the suboxone but a very small dose..tomorrow a.m. i go to to doctors again to find out how i can get off the suboxone without having the anxiety everyone says i am gonna have...:162:

[sioux]

I had a friend addicted to pain meds. When she hit bottom she called me and asked what to do. I asked her if she was ready to make a decision because the way I saw it was she could continue on in her addiction to the bitter end or stop using and get support. What did she want to do?

When I got to AA I was looking for all the differences. I was so much better than all that. How on earth was this nonsense going to apply to me. Hope was diminishing. Then someone suggested I start looking for the similarities instead. Turns out we had more in common than I realized. Admission became easier until I could surrender.

[TakeTheWheel]

I've been addicted to the pain medication oxycotin for three years now and it has absolutly turned my world upside down. For the last three years I've been smoking OC off of tin foil to get high, spending up to $80 on one pill. It's caused me to lie and steal; I saw myself becoming the person I never wanted to be. I recently have been getting my life back. Finding faith in God has helped me find faith in myself to get better and stop using. All the strength to stop is within you! "Courage to change the things you can". God bless

[Carol W]

HI, my name is Carol and I am just like you. I am taking Xanax and Vicodin and I also take them all in a week instead of a month. Maybe we can help each otherl:85: