rdizzy
10-15-2008, 10:51 AM
Whoa! Is this awesome that such a site exists? I thank my Higher Power that I came across this site this morning when I was researching Nicotine Anonymous meetings that are NOT in my area.
The name's Ryan, you can call me rdizzy, rdiz, or asshole it's all good. I'm a recovering drug addict I've accumulated 7 months worth of 24 hours and am a grateful member of A.A. and through the grace of my Higher Power and 12 steps the obsession and compulsion to use drugs or drink alcohol has been lifted. The issue I present to you today is mine of nicotine. I CANNOT STOP SMOKING, holy **** kicking this habit is worse than cocaine, alcohol, and pcp combined. In the past I have accumulated 11 days, 3, 4, 8, and most recently another 3 days in which I celebrated with a Newport 100 and dammit I'm sick and tired of smoking. I keep falling flat on my face. I've tried the patch, the gum, and now I'm on the Chantax pill which works absolute wonders I have been able to cut down from a pack a day to 2 a day and sometimes zero! But I just cant seem to get over the hump of 1-3 days, I just want to be free from this slavery.
I try the serenity prayer, the one day at a time, chewing a ridiculous amount of regular gum and candies, working out, and applying the 12 steps in my life to nicotine and most recently hitting my knees talking to my higher power to remove this obsession and compulsion to smoke. All of these work but I just always screw it up.
I need some experience, strength, and hope that it gets better and can be done, I've been in tears over my nicotine addiction I just want it to stop.
I am grateful I found this website and I hope somebody and help a lowley coffee drinking, red bull slammin, newport smoking, recovering drug addict like myself. Thank you!
Signed,
Grateful
The name's Ryan, you can call me rdizzy, rdiz, or asshole it's all good. I'm a recovering drug addict I've accumulated 7 months worth of 24 hours and am a grateful member of A.A. and through the grace of my Higher Power and 12 steps the obsession and compulsion to use drugs or drink alcohol has been lifted. The issue I present to you today is mine of nicotine. I CANNOT STOP SMOKING, holy **** kicking this habit is worse than cocaine, alcohol, and pcp combined. In the past I have accumulated 11 days, 3, 4, 8, and most recently another 3 days in which I celebrated with a Newport 100 and dammit I'm sick and tired of smoking. I keep falling flat on my face. I've tried the patch, the gum, and now I'm on the Chantax pill which works absolute wonders I have been able to cut down from a pack a day to 2 a day and sometimes zero! But I just cant seem to get over the hump of 1-3 days, I just want to be free from this slavery.
I try the serenity prayer, the one day at a time, chewing a ridiculous amount of regular gum and candies, working out, and applying the 12 steps in my life to nicotine and most recently hitting my knees talking to my higher power to remove this obsession and compulsion to smoke. All of these work but I just always screw it up.
I need some experience, strength, and hope that it gets better and can be done, I've been in tears over my nicotine addiction I just want it to stop.
I am grateful I found this website and I hope somebody and help a lowley coffee drinking, red bull slammin, newport smoking, recovering drug addict like myself. Thank you!
Signed,
Grateful