Dianaji
10-22-2008, 11:37 AM
Having just reread an overview of the characteristics of adult children of alcoholics, I am again reminded of a deep seated urge within me to be drawn to people that are emotionally unreliable. I am amazed to recognize my need for these folks to be just as they are, somehow they prove a deep seated belief I have that I am really alone and unworthy... there is no one here for me(like my alcoholic parents were not there for me)... I have gone about my life reinforcing that belief while longing for closeness.
Writing this blog, I realize I need to declare my intention now, and to challenge that belief and assumption. My resolve is to shine a light on that part of me and defuse it... that belief has been in charge of my life(it seems like forever) and I am ready to allow a greater power to occupy that position... Let go, let God? It seems I have been waiting forever for someone to come along and share this burden... Like the line from the song says... "Lookin for love in all the wrong places..."
Writing this blog, I realize I need to declare my intention now, and to challenge that belief and assumption. My resolve is to shine a light on that part of me and defuse it... that belief has been in charge of my life(it seems like forever) and I am ready to allow a greater power to occupy that position... Let go, let God? It seems I have been waiting forever for someone to come along and share this burden... Like the line from the song says... "Lookin for love in all the wrong places..."