shydawg
10-29-2008, 01:41 AM
Today I live!
This is a little letter about my life. I am calling it "Today I live!"
I know today that God's will for my life is that I live and have a good life. The only limitation to whatever I want to do in my life is the question, "Will it hurt other people or me?" If not, I ask, "Is it possible?" Then I ask, "Do I want to do it?" If all the answers are positive, then my final decision is "Go ahead—live!"
If I had the chance to live my life again, then I would brood less about yesterday or tomorrow and live for the moment, today. I would travel more, laugh and love more, and certainly I would also cry more. I would run barefoot on the lawn in the morning dew, risk more, and plan less. I would eat chocolate cake whenever I felt like it, wear my Sunday clothes on Monday, and be grateful for this very moment.
But did I not get the chance to live my life anew? I do not have to live in fear of everything that happens anymore. I am not living in the dirt anymore. I do not have to hurt or prostitute myself or let people offend me or beat me up. I do not have to destroy my body and my soul with drugs or by treating myself like an enemy instead of a friend. I do not wake up in the morning—or after an overdose—feeling sadly surprised that I am still alive.
Today I live!
I create many of my own limitations by telling myself that I "should do" all of those serious things, or that I "should not do this," or asking myself, "What will people think if I do that?"
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Often I fear that people will not love me because of the way I am. Sometimes I still feel I am not entitled to freedom, or to laugh out loud, or to feel all of my wild feelings, or to reach out and grasp life in both my hands.
But who keeps me from doing that? Just me—no one else!
Sigrid B, Karlsruhe, Germany
This is a little letter about my life. I am calling it "Today I live!"
I know today that God's will for my life is that I live and have a good life. The only limitation to whatever I want to do in my life is the question, "Will it hurt other people or me?" If not, I ask, "Is it possible?" Then I ask, "Do I want to do it?" If all the answers are positive, then my final decision is "Go ahead—live!"
If I had the chance to live my life again, then I would brood less about yesterday or tomorrow and live for the moment, today. I would travel more, laugh and love more, and certainly I would also cry more. I would run barefoot on the lawn in the morning dew, risk more, and plan less. I would eat chocolate cake whenever I felt like it, wear my Sunday clothes on Monday, and be grateful for this very moment.
But did I not get the chance to live my life anew? I do not have to live in fear of everything that happens anymore. I am not living in the dirt anymore. I do not have to hurt or prostitute myself or let people offend me or beat me up. I do not have to destroy my body and my soul with drugs or by treating myself like an enemy instead of a friend. I do not wake up in the morning—or after an overdose—feeling sadly surprised that I am still alive.
Today I live!
I create many of my own limitations by telling myself that I "should do" all of those serious things, or that I "should not do this," or asking myself, "What will people think if I do that?"
*
Often I fear that people will not love me because of the way I am. Sometimes I still feel I am not entitled to freedom, or to laugh out loud, or to feel all of my wild feelings, or to reach out and grasp life in both my hands.
But who keeps me from doing that? Just me—no one else!
Sigrid B, Karlsruhe, Germany