ErikaD981
11-26-2008, 11:08 AM
It's been a while since I've visited. I thought I would drop by and say hi. I'm sure I've posted in the past year, but I have to say that the past 12-15 months have been both the best, most rewarding and the most difficult and trying. I'm constantly trying to keep my recovery first, while dealing with life on lifes terms, and a brother who just will not surrender to this disease. In September of 2007 I had the wedding of my dreams. We decided we were ready for a baby and in December of 2007 I found out I was pregnant. I felt great my entire pregnancy, with the exception of the fact that my husband and I almost decided to separate and get divorced. While I was around 5 months pregnant, he went through some things which in turn caused me great pain. I felt hurt, angry and abandoned. I tried to stay close to God and the program. I didn't understand it but I tried my best to put it in God's hands. The outcome was about a month before my due date he decided to get his stuff together and do the right thing. I knew it would be hard, but I agreed to try to work things out. On August 21, 2008 I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. My labor and delivery went so smooth and it was the most wonderful experience. We named our baby Dustin and he is the best gift and blessing I've ever received. I absolutely love being a mom. My husband Scott and I are doing well both as partners and parents. My son brings a smile to my face every time I think of him and I couldn't ask for anything more. I feel so complete with him in my life. I am also grateful that my husband is back to being the man I remember, the man I married. I still have pain for what happened, but I'm trying to deal with it as best as I can. I celebrated 5 years clean on November 11. I'm looking forward to the holidays. I hope everyone is doing well!