Smoke addict

[Raya]

So I'm home sick,
can't go to any mtg's and I actually want to go to one,:lol:
I feel as though I'm learning a bit of a lesson on patience, dilligence, and persavierence.
This chest bug, has got me in pretty bad shape.
I'm a smoker, and I can't even smoke a ciggerette w/ out hacken' a lung out...
Time to quit right?
Alas, I do not have the gumption to go through that as well right now...
So I've just cut back to 3or 4 smokes/ day, and half of them at that...
What an addiction eh?
It hurts to do it, but I still light up....
Not to mention the obviously bleak future for a smoker...
I'm just not ready to give it up yet.
I quit once, for 6mnths.
But once I hit a severe Post-Partum-Depression after my 2nd son,
I ended up picken it up again.
I think I actually relapsed shortly b4 or after I started smoking again.
It was a severly difficult time for me.
And the weight!
Wow, I've hit the 200lbs mark in recovery while still smokeing,
needless to say I am absolutely petrified of the amount I'll weigh if / when I quit.
Well, this started out just as an update on how I've been feeling, and ended up all about my fag addiction.
Here's to hopeing I'll actually find the courage to quit when I'm one year clean of drugs.
I hear its the best time to quit.
That's when I quit last time, think I'll try it again.
...definition of insanity?....
:35::162:

[dalin]

You can do it!!!!!!

[Chewi]

You can do it. Keep coming back! One day at a time. Get help here and wherever you can--meetings, your doctor, get a sponsor--seek out help and do the work one day at a time and you can do it! Hoping you get well soon!

[paulm]

you can find the strength, quiting is easy staying stopped is the challenge. good luck

[thankgod4na]

I am in the same boat...still got wiggle room no cancer that I know of ...sick huh!!! ...but I have a lot of pressure in my head particularly when I smoke and the chest bug on top of that...I wish I could go back to one year clean and quit...try your hardest to stop now if you can...you don't want to put yourself throught the mental masterbation that I have... In fact just threw a pack in the toilet just this morning I prey I can do it this time... my wiggle room is closing in!!!!

[Raya]

I am in the same boat...still got wiggle room no cancer that I know of ...sick huh!!! ...but I have a lot of pressure in my head particularly when I smoke and the chest bug on top of that...I wish I could go back to one year clean and quit...try your hardest to stop now if you can...you don't want to put yourself throught the mental masterbation that I have... In fact just threw a pack in the toilet just this morning I prey I can do it this time... my wiggle room is closing in!!!!


Wow, yeah, I know what you mean,
problem is I still enjoy it,
can only smoke a half a ciggarette now,
but still trying to smoke with pnemonia!
wow, talk about unmanigability/ insanity!
The worst thing is my mother just called last night to tell me that she has been diagnosed with breast cancer.:3:
I was supposed to quit on her birthday, the 28th of Nov,
and she asked me not to,
b/c she didn't want me to be *****y while I was visiting her.
So we pushed back a week,
but I didn't throw out the pack of cigg's and my partner chickened out,
so, we kept smokeing.
We've had so many chances to quit since then,
god, why are we not ready yet?!!!
i know it will be too hard to quit if he's still smoking in the house,
so he has to agree to smoke outside.
And I don't know if he'll do that.
Everytime I ask he doesn't want to.
feeling beaten.:268:
RR

[dalin]

Hang in there,you deserve freedom!!!!!!

[mtgoat911]

i quit smoking around 2 yrs clean
i tried welbutrin, but that stuff made me manic, so i used nincotine gum
it worked for me
i got sick of getting respiratory infections, and having to spend so much money on asthma medication
i was ready to quit, i have not had a ciggerett in almost 3 yrs
when your ready you wil know it!!
i had to come to meetings late and leave early to avoid the cloud of smoke hanging around outside na meetings
when i stopped smoking i used the steps
step one.....i looked at how my life was unmanageable because of cigggerette smoke
i changed people, places and things that made me want to smoke
its a real problem and a real addiction
you can do it, never loose hope in yourself,
i would buy a carton for cigs, smoke one, wet the entire carton, go out the nest day and buy more, buti never gave up
keep the faith that your body can heal!!!
xo

[Raya]

Many people are quick on advice, but not many are good at giving solutions.
Thank you for sharing what worked for you.
I do have a plan, I've just chickened out a couple of times.
There always seems to be an excuse.
One of the hardest hurtles to overcome is that my partner smokes, and won't smoke outside, so I'll still be getting 2nd hand smoke.
Just don't know if I'm willing to leave my partner over ciggarettes.
I like the part about continueing to try each day.
Even If I break down and buy some.
I think that was my problem with my last two quit dates.
Once I passed the 'quit day', and was still smokeing, I just ended up feeling so crappy about it that I kept smoking.:183::23::evil: