dalin
01-21-2009, 02:08 AM
My name is M. I am an addict and in a federal prison. It’s not my
first time in prison. If fact, I spent twenty years in the state system
before I made it into the federal system.
I got here clean and it didn’t take more than two months to find
myself strung out, once again. I had tried meetings on the streets but
I never worked a step, and never in thirty-five years of using had I
put more than five months clean together.
So there I sat, in a cell, strung out, owing a bunch of money and
I had hit my bottom as the dope didn’t work anymore. I can’t live
loaded, and I sure as hell didn’t know how to live and stay clean, so I
hit my knees and, as weird as it felt, I asked God to remove the junkie
living and to take the obsession and compulsion out of my life.
There wasn’t any bright light or angels descending from heaven,
at least none that I could see, but something changed that night.
I started to go to meetings here at this prison—every meeting they
had. I began to read the literature. I was fortunate to find a sponsor
and did what he suggested. I started working the Twelve Steps of
NA, and along the way I became able to help others.
From the Inside
I gave this program a chance and it gave me back a sense of freedom
that I’ve never known before. It gave me hope.
I love this program. Where else can a bunch of junkies get together,
laugh, enjoy themselves and then speak fro their hearts and have a
bond like we do in Narcotics Anonymous.
I only have eleven months clean today. I can’t live with the idea
of never using again. I can, however, live with the idea of not using
just for today, and just for today I’m clean and free.
Be the Grace of my God and NA, I’ve found freedom. If it works
for an old convict and junkie like me, it will work for anyone who
works it.
I’ll get out of prison one day, but I’ll keep coming back to NA. It
works!
first time in prison. If fact, I spent twenty years in the state system
before I made it into the federal system.
I got here clean and it didn’t take more than two months to find
myself strung out, once again. I had tried meetings on the streets but
I never worked a step, and never in thirty-five years of using had I
put more than five months clean together.
So there I sat, in a cell, strung out, owing a bunch of money and
I had hit my bottom as the dope didn’t work anymore. I can’t live
loaded, and I sure as hell didn’t know how to live and stay clean, so I
hit my knees and, as weird as it felt, I asked God to remove the junkie
living and to take the obsession and compulsion out of my life.
There wasn’t any bright light or angels descending from heaven,
at least none that I could see, but something changed that night.
I started to go to meetings here at this prison—every meeting they
had. I began to read the literature. I was fortunate to find a sponsor
and did what he suggested. I started working the Twelve Steps of
NA, and along the way I became able to help others.
From the Inside
I gave this program a chance and it gave me back a sense of freedom
that I’ve never known before. It gave me hope.
I love this program. Where else can a bunch of junkies get together,
laugh, enjoy themselves and then speak fro their hearts and have a
bond like we do in Narcotics Anonymous.
I only have eleven months clean today. I can’t live with the idea
of never using again. I can, however, live with the idea of not using
just for today, and just for today I’m clean and free.
Be the Grace of my God and NA, I’ve found freedom. If it works
for an old convict and junkie like me, it will work for anyone who
works it.
I’ll get out of prison one day, but I’ll keep coming back to NA. It
works!