dalin
01-21-2009, 02:31 AM
Sharing the Message
The Bay Area Newsletter
®
WHAT?! You must be out of your
mind. This is exactly what I was thinking
when my sponsor suggested that I needed to
do 90 meetings in 90 days. My eyes grew big
and my mouth dropped wide open. I truly believe
at that very moment I went into shock.
I felt myself begin to panic, I had to
think of something quick. I thought for a few
minutes and said, “I can’t do that.” I mean
really, didn’t she know how busy I was? I
was a little upset that this would even be expected
of me. I mean after all, who in there
right mind would consider going to a NA
meeting every night? Especially I who was
definitely not like everyone else. I thought
she was here to help me, how does this help?
So I went on to say, “I don’t have a car, so
you see this will be impossible.” I soon found
out that this girl had an answer for everything.
She replied, “You should have no
problem finding an addict to pick you up. In
fact, when I go I can give you a ride.” Bummer,
I had to think of something else. I said,
“I bet you don’t do that many meetings a
week”. I really have her now, she has 6 years
clean and I bet she doesn’t even go to 3 meetings
a week. There’s no way she can insist
that I do 90-n-90 if she doesn’t even do close
to it. “Yes”, she said. “Although on Wednesdays
I do a H&I meeting and I cannot take
you there, you will need to find a ride that
night.” I do not like this one bit. “I’ll Tell you
what,” I said, “I can make it to 3 meetings a
week and that’s all.” She quickly replied
with, “7”. I said, “okay, I guess I can do 4 a
week.” Again she said, “7”. I said, okay
maybe I will try to do 5.” She said just as
stubborn as ever, “7”. I could tell by now that she wasn’t
about to budge. So I had decided to give up on this
bargaining plan, it just wasn’t working. “Okay then”, I
said, “I will try to make it to a meeting every
night.” (Yeah, right.)
I actually surprised myself, I was doing four
meetings a week and I didn’t even think I would do
three. That lasted for about two weeks. The only reason
I kept coming back was because of all the cute guys that
I saw in the rooms, (that’s another story). Because of
that, I managed to put together 60 days.
What happened next is a blur. I do know that I
ended up going back out, and out, and out. The one
thing that I am glad about, is that I always came back. I
had five white key tags and I asked my sponsor why this
wasn’t it working for me. (Duh, do you think it was because
I wasn’t taking any suggestions?) I decided that it
was time to try it someone else's way. I did my 90-n-90.
Yes it was tough, but I was desperate. I managed to find
a willing addict almost every night to get me to a meeting.
And in doing so, I had unknowingly developed an
awesome support group. And this also allowed many
people into my life. But most of all it helped me stay
clean.
I look back at what I put my Sponsor through.
You can only imagine that if I put up this much of a
fight about doing 90 meetings in 90 days, just think
about the fight I put up on everything else. I thank my
Sponsor with all my heart for being there and never
backing down. I thank everyone else who had listened to
me ramble about everything and then letting me know
that I was just where I was suppose to be. And I am very
grateful that I stopped fighting and I let those people
into my life and gave them the opportunity to know me
and I to know them.
Yes, I believe in 90-n-90 and I suggest it to all
my Sponsees. I do this because I want them to experience
what I did. I want them to have the opportunity to
settle their minds and learn to hear all the wonderful
things that are said. I want them to see the same people
every week. The people that will call you on you crap,
let you know when you are acting different and most of
all, when you find yourself confused about where your
at, they let you know you are right where you are
suppose to be.
Sandy R.
The Bay Area Newsletter
®
WHAT?! You must be out of your
mind. This is exactly what I was thinking
when my sponsor suggested that I needed to
do 90 meetings in 90 days. My eyes grew big
and my mouth dropped wide open. I truly believe
at that very moment I went into shock.
I felt myself begin to panic, I had to
think of something quick. I thought for a few
minutes and said, “I can’t do that.” I mean
really, didn’t she know how busy I was? I
was a little upset that this would even be expected
of me. I mean after all, who in there
right mind would consider going to a NA
meeting every night? Especially I who was
definitely not like everyone else. I thought
she was here to help me, how does this help?
So I went on to say, “I don’t have a car, so
you see this will be impossible.” I soon found
out that this girl had an answer for everything.
She replied, “You should have no
problem finding an addict to pick you up. In
fact, when I go I can give you a ride.” Bummer,
I had to think of something else. I said,
“I bet you don’t do that many meetings a
week”. I really have her now, she has 6 years
clean and I bet she doesn’t even go to 3 meetings
a week. There’s no way she can insist
that I do 90-n-90 if she doesn’t even do close
to it. “Yes”, she said. “Although on Wednesdays
I do a H&I meeting and I cannot take
you there, you will need to find a ride that
night.” I do not like this one bit. “I’ll Tell you
what,” I said, “I can make it to 3 meetings a
week and that’s all.” She quickly replied
with, “7”. I said, “okay, I guess I can do 4 a
week.” Again she said, “7”. I said, okay
maybe I will try to do 5.” She said just as
stubborn as ever, “7”. I could tell by now that she wasn’t
about to budge. So I had decided to give up on this
bargaining plan, it just wasn’t working. “Okay then”, I
said, “I will try to make it to a meeting every
night.” (Yeah, right.)
I actually surprised myself, I was doing four
meetings a week and I didn’t even think I would do
three. That lasted for about two weeks. The only reason
I kept coming back was because of all the cute guys that
I saw in the rooms, (that’s another story). Because of
that, I managed to put together 60 days.
What happened next is a blur. I do know that I
ended up going back out, and out, and out. The one
thing that I am glad about, is that I always came back. I
had five white key tags and I asked my sponsor why this
wasn’t it working for me. (Duh, do you think it was because
I wasn’t taking any suggestions?) I decided that it
was time to try it someone else's way. I did my 90-n-90.
Yes it was tough, but I was desperate. I managed to find
a willing addict almost every night to get me to a meeting.
And in doing so, I had unknowingly developed an
awesome support group. And this also allowed many
people into my life. But most of all it helped me stay
clean.
I look back at what I put my Sponsor through.
You can only imagine that if I put up this much of a
fight about doing 90 meetings in 90 days, just think
about the fight I put up on everything else. I thank my
Sponsor with all my heart for being there and never
backing down. I thank everyone else who had listened to
me ramble about everything and then letting me know
that I was just where I was suppose to be. And I am very
grateful that I stopped fighting and I let those people
into my life and gave them the opportunity to know me
and I to know them.
Yes, I believe in 90-n-90 and I suggest it to all
my Sponsees. I do this because I want them to experience
what I did. I want them to have the opportunity to
settle their minds and learn to hear all the wonderful
things that are said. I want them to see the same people
every week. The people that will call you on you crap,
let you know when you are acting different and most of
all, when you find yourself confused about where your
at, they let you know you are right where you are
suppose to be.
Sandy R.