I Picked Up:

[Cody1958]

I was coming up on 4 years and I wound up picking back up Herion. I was also drinking off and on. and over taking my pain medication. I just felt that I had to tell you all. I am so ashamed of myself and I kind of feel like a loser right at this point.. I think I have 10 days today. I never dotoxed myself at home. I always went to in patient to do that but this time, I detoxed at home. I just had to say it.. Rhonda:8: :sad:

[bry]

Rhonda,
You're here, you made it back, you're alive:29: You're doing the right things and should be proud of yourself. 10 days is great, keep it up a day at a time:1:
((hugs))
Bry

[zoomie]

I think all of here at one time or another had relapsed. Forgive yourself and move on! Congrats on your ten days and just think you made it out of a relaps alive!!
((((((((huggys)))))))

[peajaye]

Hey, 10 days is wonderful. If I may, I'd like to share my relapse history with you. Many times I "quit" using drugs, but I'd continue to drink off and on, just like you said you did. Once, after rehab I stayed stopped for 5 months, but because I was a drug addict but not an alcoholic, I decided to have a drink. Within a short time, I was back on drugs again. I wondered how this happened. I went to another rehab and this time I realized/understood that I was an alcoholic as well. It was the first drink that took me back to the drugs. Today I believe it is the same disease. Each time I "quit", the relapse would be because I saw no harm in drinking. That is what happened to me.

[Sandman4Atl]

Peajaye,
What a great lesson you have learned! Now you know that mind altering substances, whatever they are will lead us back out. Being totally sober now, you can start to enjoy the gifts of the program provided you work it. Congratulations on your new found sobriety!
Sandman4Atl

[Just-A-Junkie]

(((((Rhonda))))

Awe that is OK, that is what we are is addicts. What we are doing here now is really not normal for us. It usually doesn't surprise me when someone picks up, what does surprise me is when we stay clean :) So be gentle with yourself, Pick yourself back up, dust off now, here we go walking hand in hand toward a new way of life. Remember in our literature it say, "We have never seen anyone relapse who has lived the NA Way" Also "Just For Today, WE never have to use again." Sending good thoughts your way.:195:

Love JAJ

[Prescott]

Hi Rhonda, Hey, 10 days is wonderful. If I may, I'd like to share my relapse history with you. Many times I "quit" using drugs, but I'd continue to drink off and on, just like you said you did. Once, after rehab I stayed stopped for 5 months, but because I was a drug addict but not an alcoholic, I decided to have a drink. Within a short time, I was back on drugs again. I wondered how this happened. I went to another rehab and this time I realized/understood that I was an alcoholic as well. It was the first drink that took me back to the drugs. Today I believe it is the same disease. Each time I "quit", the relapse would be because I saw no harm in drinking. That is what happened to me.


This could be my story. I now realize it's the first drink that changes my attitude "Give a sh*t less" attitude.

Rhonda, I'm glad you made it back. Dust yourself off and pick yourself up and give it another chance. Be good to yourself.

[admin]

Hey ((((Rhonda)))), :79: I am glad to have you back with us. Congratulations on making 10 days! :29: You have nothing to be ashamed of. You are amongst family here. As others have said - pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start again like you are doing. Please know we are here for you anytime. Keep coming back and sharing with us. :42:

Love,
Tammy

[Cody1958]

I want to say thank you all for your support. I have hade my head up my yang yang for awhile. I still can't get that fog to leave me as of yet. but I know that it to shall pass. I have to admit that this time around I am scared to death. I never felt this before and I just don't know where to put it at. I don't know why but I am still scared that I am going to use. so I am taking percautions to stay away from people places and things and running the oppisite way when I do run across anyone. so please keep me in you prayers.. ((((((Tammy)))) I sure have missed our talks.. Love you all. Rhonda

[janbear]

Rhonda,:79: I too, know what it is like to relapse, the last time i was scared to death and became absolutely willing to go to any lengths to stay clean and sober.
Remember take things one day at a time for all thats all any one of has.:42: I am just glad you are back.:42: Please dont beat yourself up. I did that to and i was miserable until i finally put down the bat.

[cassie]

Rhonda
You came back and are willing to start again. That is what is important. :29: I don't know anyone who hasn't relapsed - so I hope you don't beat yourself up. Let it go and use the time to doing what you know you need to do. That fear, imho, is your inner voice listening to your Higher Power. :61: We are here for you. You are in my prayers. :195:

[sarah]

Ronda

Dont be hard on yourself YOU are Back in the program and that great.
10day is good step one we admitted we were powerless over our addiction that our live had become unmangeable
GOD bless you

welcome back hang in there girl one day at a time easy does it

[flickchic]

:79: :94: (((((((Ronda)))))))),

Awesome, TODAY is what counts and You are here with us TODAY!!!!:29:

:89: :90: :111: As many have said, a lot of us have relapsed, or even like self have gone into recovery for one addiction and 6 years later "accepted" that I had an even bigger one.....drugs first, alcohol this time!!!....I have been an alcoholic for way way longer than drug addict though. Hey, it's ok, wer'e all here on the journey, different paths, but same base goals I feel; to be clean and free of our addicitions, to learn and grow to better ways of 'being'.

Hang in there and know that wer'e here for you!!!!!:42: :42:

[barbnc]

You made it back, many do not.... YOU ARE AMONGST PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU AND UNDERSTAND. You are in my prayers. Take care.:wink:

[Doraine]

:76: :77: Back. Congratulations on having 10 days. Not all of us has had a relapse. You never have to go out again. If I can do it so can you!Keep up your spiritual strength ask your Higher Power to remove the obsession to use and believe that it can happen.Early sobriety is hard work but it gets better one day at a time. Good luck Rhonda.

[Peggyannvt]

I'm new to the group, my eyes are tearing for you Rhonda. Welcome back.

I've heard that the one who is the longest sober or clean, is the one who got up the earliest this morning.

I'm glad we are both here

LOVE
Peggyann

[Aprilskyzz]

Rhonda, I know exactly how you feel. I was seven years clean and picked up for an entire year. I am recently 10 days clean again and I know the pain your body and mind go thru detoxing. Hang in there. It gets better, but you already know that. Welcome back. April

[rooster]

:75: and :45: back im fully aware of the courage it takes to come back. I also here your pain and confusion.

Im gary an addict from OZ.:42:





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[Aprilskyzz]

Hello Rhonda just wanted to let you know that you have support. Hope you are feeling better. You deserve to feel good. Take it easy on yourself. I found that taking it minute by minute instead of day by day has helped me out immensely. I am now up to hour by hour. Good luck and I wish you all of the best.

April