embraced
01-30-2009, 03:07 PM
I am a recovering crystal meth addict working a program. I have been married for 10 years, but we've been together for about 13 years. My husband doesn't thinks he needs "the program or those people," as he likes to say. My husband was my main using buddy. He was always the middle man for everyone else as well. I've been sober for 17 and a 1/2 months. I know that you can't force someone to do what they don't want to do. Like go to meetings and work a program. So I've been really focusing and working on myself. But last night, I woke up at 3:30 a.m. and he was nowhere to be found. When he finally returned home, he told me that he had been using again. He told me it was like 5 or 6 times within the past couple of months. He told me that this had nothing to do with me, and that he would do whatever I wanted to make this better. I talked to my sponsor about it and she told me to write about it, and that I should also look into alanon. I don't know what to do about it TODAY, just for TODAY,...so I thought I'd share and see what else comes back. Thanks and God bless.