Getting nervous and becomming very emotional

[jollygirl]

I'm starting to get really nervous about going to detox on Tuesday, not nervous in a way like I'm not going to go, just nervous because I have no idea what to expect. I did get on the hospital's website and I get to bring my own blanket and pillow which for some reason is extremely comforting to me.

I haven't been able to go anywhere all weekend because everything seems to be making me cry and I just feel fragile. Anyway, it's almost midnight and I'm just up rambling trying not to get myself worked up.

[yukonm]

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[gettinfree]

Good Morning jollygirl...Hope you got through the night ok.

Have you set your clocks ahead? See, one hour less already.

Went to a play last night in Boise with a theatre group. We just finished a 2 wk run of 'Desperate Ambrose'. A western comedy, spoof. The show done last night, was put on by the 'Shrinners'. They did the same play, but as a Mellow Drama, w/ boo's ,hisses and cat calls from the audience. Many of their cast came out and saw our first show 3 wks ago.

This is just one area of my life that has been returned to me in recovery. With what I've been shown by my 'New God' in recovery, I can't imagine what He has in store for me today, tomorrow, or the next minutes.

Not all moments have been as pleasant as last night, but I have come to find that all moments are manageable, necessary, and are all 'growing' experiences.

It's nice you can take your blanket and pillow to the hospital. You'll get through this and find it has all been for a reason.

It'll be day light soon...That always help me in tuff times.

Stay with us...Your Friend...Mike
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[Bob-J]

Hi JollyGirl,
Hope you came through the night Okay, I was just wondering are you gonna go to inpatient treatment after detox.

[jollygirl]

Thanks everyone, I did get through the night just fine. Put in DVDs of my favorite sitcom and watched them. And hey, like gettinfree said, I had one last hour of night time last night thanks to the time change :)!

I am going to inpatient rehab after detox. I have a lot of stuff to deal with or else it will all be for nothing. The things that drove me to abuse in the first place will still be there if I don't face them. I realize that these are things I can not face at home alone, I need professional help. I have things from my childhood all the way up to my husband's affair in Iraq last year. Life has sucked for the last few years and I need quit hiding that pain under the pills and deal with it!

[thereishope]

Its all going to be ok.
Fear of facing anything is what keeps us away and i so understand that because i was that way too but the more i wanted to be "FREE" i realized that everything i had been afraid of became my most valuable lessons and in a very good way and it will be ok. Remember one day at a time and take it easy. Its time to be kind "TO YOU" and we are all here for you and we will love you untill you can love yourself.