Hey guys please read this

[Zencer]

Hello to all of you out there. My name is Spencer and I'm 18 years old.

I came here tonight for support, and hope that I'll be able to make it through this tough time.

I am a narcotics addict, more specifically an opiate addict. I started smoking pot when I was 16. I smoked literally every day for about a year and a half. Now weed doesn't appeal to me and other narcotics have taken it's place.

In April of 2008, I went to detox for oxycontin addiction. For 5 months I snorted oxy, before I went to detox I was doing 120mg at a time about 5 times a day.

After detox I never thought I'd ever do oxycontin again, but reality came around and this past December I did just that "little bit" that "wouldn't matter". Now it's March and it has progressed again, not nearly to the degree I was at last April, but the addiction is so powerful, so life-controlling that it scares the hell out of me.

My 17 year old sister died a few years ago when she was hit by a drunk driver. I've done so many drugs that I can't even remember the exact year it happened in (it was September '06 or '07).

I'm such a smart person you guys.. I know I am. I was raised a Christian, and I know my true potential. But, the world of narcotics has consumed me... I want to stop I truly do. I constantly push away my family and welcome in my "friends" with open arms, and now that I think about it they're not friends at all.

I suppose I just need some inspiration and some help.. thanks guys.

-Spencer

[Rockin Big Daddy]

A little extra effort can bring your life to a much higher level. Once you've done what must be done, do a little more:162:
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The distance you must travel to get from ordinary to outstanding is not really that far. Yet the benefits of going that extra distance are enormous.

You have something very special and original to give to life. Let the best that you are flow out from you with every effort, in every situation.

There is an abundance to which you're already connected. Do the work and put forth the commitment to fully express that abundance through the outcomes you achieve.:1:

The opportunity to make a difference is one of life's greatest blessings. Seize that opportunity and live it with every breath you take.:idea:

Know the magnificent joy that effort can bring, and you'll always be eager for more. Go above and beyond, and you'll find it to be a truly wonderful place.

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[skyhook]

Z,

George Thoroughgood's "On the day I was born...bad to the bone" song is not reality.

The greatest day is the one we discover "why" we were born. Just showing up is not enough and none of us get out of childhood without battle scars.

Another great day is the day we take full responsibility for our circumstances, because it is at the transition of "personal accountability" and "just getting by" that we begin the healing.

Acknowledging that our best thinking brought us to the day(s) of calamity, helps us remember that we require a higher purpose than we have, thus far, relied on.

The fact that you have begun to question things is a great day indeed. I speak from my own experience here and wish you all peace, but the answers are the easy part...the real chew is carrying them out and following through as part of the process which reveals the hidden fruit of this journey. Each day is a new opportunity to start fresh and taste a bit of that fruit.

The goal is to begin to appreciate this new fruit...and want more.

Peace.

[gettinfree]

Hi Spencer...Thanks for coming in and sharing what's goin on with you. You're discovering some very important things about addiction and yourself.

Yes you are a very smart young man. To bad that doesn't cure addiction. Sometimes it creates more problems.

You've been through a detox program. I'm sure they loaded you up with information about addiction and recovery. Now's the time to investigate some of those options.

Breaking the bond of addiction isn't something most of us can do on our own. I know, I've tried. I've found my answer through Narcotics Anonymous. Check it out, go to some meetings, pay attention.

You've taken a big step by coming in here asking for help.

Good Luck My Friend...Mike

[zoomie]

Good morning zencer, I zoomie. I'm old enough to be your mom LOL. If fact I have an 18 year old daughter (plus 5 more). You'll probibly need another detox. From what I have seen it's hard to get off the stuff your on. Alcohol is my main drug of choice,so I only have experiance from my kids using that crap. My 18 year old daughter has been in many of hospitals due to drug over doses in her teens. She now is only smoking pot and not other drugs. I wish she would quit pot too,but I'm glad she is not into the heavy stuff any more. If you can talk to your parents and tell them your in "trouble" again. They may get upset,but I'm sure last time you did not get into detox by yourself and they helped you. They will help you this time too. After you get out of detox, you should try NA meetings. It's a wonderful way to get support. I come here too for support along with my AA meetings. The more support the better. We do have young people who come here at times,but no matter what the age, addiction is the same, it sucks. Keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. We care!

[MrSoul1970]

hey man...OC's are ruff...no doubt...I'm pretty much hookd on perc 10's,I've really tried to stay away from OC's even thoo they are more cost effective and easier to get..Its just insance how easy these things are to get...its downright scary. One of my best friends is currently in San Diego going thru his 2nd detox..Before he left hewas Back up to 700-1200 mgs a day + and almost 2 8-balls of coke +2-3 Sticks of xanax to fall asleep.. A DAY!!...unfortuntly he could afford them. Also an awesome person..smart guy..It just sux. But if your family supports you and they know,thats 1/2 the battle...coming here and getting back to a detox facilty is the second 1/2.

I wish you well bro and all the success.

[MrSoul1970]

Also Spencer, I am very sorry to hear about your sister..Beyond tragic.

Stay strong bro.

"Fng opiates!

Keep coming back, Ive only bee here since last week and I already feel a little bettr and more supported.

[Zencer]

Thank you guys so much for the comments. They all touched me in a different, special way. I'm gonna keep coming back here, it's given me an extra sense of hope that I'm not alone.