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mhull
03-23-2009, 03:43 PM
I found this googling message boards. I hope this will help.

A little about myself, I am a 27 year old proud father of 3 (twins were born on February 7th) located in Ohio. I have been married for 5 years.

I was raised by parents with strong Christian values, whom seldom drank alcohol. However, relatives my maternal side are nearly all alcholics. I was exposed to it since I was born. I didn't drink much alcohol in High School, but college came and it was at that time that I developed a problem with it.

4 years ago, I was drinking 12-18 alcoholic beverages in a setting and doing it 3-4 times per week. When my eldest son was born, I cut back to 2 times per week.

Currently, I am drinking usually one, sometimes 2 times per week. I drink between 8-12 beers per sitting, usually on Friday night.

I am on here, because while I don't drink daily, I still have a problem that is affecting my marriage and my family. I need help and am seeking counseling now. Because of alcholol I lie to my wife, hide things from her and have used money from our savings or set aside to pay bills to buy it. I am two totally different people when I am sober and not thinking about alcohol, and when I have the mindset that I am going to drink or am intoxicated.

It has gotten to the point where my mother, to whom I am very close, refuses to speak with me. My wife is contemplating leaving (hopefully just short term or not at all), and I am completely miserable. I cherish my family, my children, my wife, my parents more than anything. I want to stop because I know how it affects them, but for some reason...no matter how hard I try, I have not been able too.

Do I like to drink? Yes, very much. But I don't want to ruin my life. :162:

Has anyone gone through a similar situation? Is there any tips you can give me? I hope this is the right place for these questions and I hope someone can help.

PS- God bless all of you who are sober and have been for a long time. I envy that. :1:

DavidNOLA
03-23-2009, 08:07 PM
Glad you are here.
You are in a great spot to pick up a copy of the AA big book and read the first 164 pages. It won't take long if you are truly serious.
You will find that there are MANY people that have "gone through a similar situation".
You no longer have to be miserable, you can start a new way of life.
There is a solution!

francie21805
03-23-2009, 08:56 PM
Hello again!!

One of the best parts of AA is that you don't have to do this alone. Here's a link to the Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, aka the Big Book. But do get you're own copy at your first meeting.

http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/

Glad you're here!!

skyhook
03-24-2009, 01:55 AM
mhull,

sometimes the pivotal moments of our lives sneak up on us.

does not matter if we notice them or not, they will leave an impact...one way or the other; thus pivotal moments. while not always recognized at the point of their arrival, the consequences of missing them remain the elephant in the room when coupled with hindsight.

welcome to your pivotal moment.

Alcohol is a lie.

Stay courageous and fight for the things you know to be true.

Peace.

zoomie
03-24-2009, 06:28 AM
12 to 18 drinks a night is a lot even if it's only 1 or 2 nights a week. I go to AA and here for support in my not drinking. There are other ways to quit too as long as you have a "higher power" to help guide you. Good luck and I hope you'll stick around!

thereishope
03-24-2009, 11:39 AM
Hello muhll,
Welcome to CRF, Its nice to meet you. As you can see there is lots of support and friends here and we need you as well so please do keep on coming back. Keep reaching out cause thats where it all begins to change. We would all like to wish you much love and many blessings on your journey of recovery and discovery.

yukonm
03-24-2009, 04:01 PM
Hi Matt,
I am glad that you found this site.. We have meetings online, I'd like to suggest you join in sometime or just visit the 12 step cafe chat room. There are people all over the world who share their experience, strength and hope in recovery.
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jeff_f
03-24-2009, 07:23 PM
Hi Matt... welcome to the group!!

Jeff f :17: