Vivian Eisenecher
05-04-2009, 12:25 PM
I am a survivor. I have conquered social phobia, dysthymia and alcoholism. I am very fortunate to have lived through my trials and I now want to share my story to assist others who are struggling with one or more of these debilitating issues.
I think we all know about social anxiety and alcoholism, but what is dysthymia? It is a genetic chronic low grade depression which keeps us from experiencing any joy in life. One feels hopeless, helpless and dreary (like the commercials with the big gray cloud hovering overhead). To cope with my guilt, anxiety and depression I turned to alcohol. A stunningly stupid decision.
As a “functional” alcoholic I was able to live my life in such a way that most people probably had no idea I was suffering so much. But, it did take a serious toll on my husband, children and my life. I sought treatment several times, part of which was to attend a support group. Well, if you have social anxiety disorder and are required to get up in front of a group, how well do you think that is going to work out?
I finally “got” that in order to treat the alcoholism, the depression and anxiety would need to be dealt with simultaneously! With all three treated concurrently, I was able to finally experience joy, had way less anxiety and was able to participate in support groups. Everything started to work. I no longer saw my peers as losers. In fact, I started to see them as the winners they were. During rehab, I started to journal. I enjoyed writing so much that I joined writing groups, organizations and attended conferences. I share my struggles and triumphs in my newly released book: Recovering Me, Discovering Joy.
I have recovered to a “better normal” and my life is filled with uncontainable joy. What I’ve learned in recovery was to “not be afraid to ask for help.” I now feel that it is my time and responsibility to give back. Through my writing, speaking and mentoring, I continue to heal broken spirits and lives everyday. And I do this joyfully.
I welcome everyone to visit my website: www.RecoveringMe.com.
I think we all know about social anxiety and alcoholism, but what is dysthymia? It is a genetic chronic low grade depression which keeps us from experiencing any joy in life. One feels hopeless, helpless and dreary (like the commercials with the big gray cloud hovering overhead). To cope with my guilt, anxiety and depression I turned to alcohol. A stunningly stupid decision.
As a “functional” alcoholic I was able to live my life in such a way that most people probably had no idea I was suffering so much. But, it did take a serious toll on my husband, children and my life. I sought treatment several times, part of which was to attend a support group. Well, if you have social anxiety disorder and are required to get up in front of a group, how well do you think that is going to work out?
I finally “got” that in order to treat the alcoholism, the depression and anxiety would need to be dealt with simultaneously! With all three treated concurrently, I was able to finally experience joy, had way less anxiety and was able to participate in support groups. Everything started to work. I no longer saw my peers as losers. In fact, I started to see them as the winners they were. During rehab, I started to journal. I enjoyed writing so much that I joined writing groups, organizations and attended conferences. I share my struggles and triumphs in my newly released book: Recovering Me, Discovering Joy.
I have recovered to a “better normal” and my life is filled with uncontainable joy. What I’ve learned in recovery was to “not be afraid to ask for help.” I now feel that it is my time and responsibility to give back. Through my writing, speaking and mentoring, I continue to heal broken spirits and lives everyday. And I do this joyfully.
I welcome everyone to visit my website: www.RecoveringMe.com.