Got through that...

[mmarq56]

I'm finding out that no matter how much you talk to your sponsor, people in the program, work the steps, write, etc., etc. -- I'm going to go through these dark moments (days). So I just have to hang on to my a** and get through it. Drinking is not an option for me anymore so I'll do anything not to drink or use (cause using is easier--no smell). Through this entire dark period, I knew I'd get through it and that kept me hanging on to sobriety and choose not to drink. But believe me, I had convinced myself -- what's the point, why am I staying sober, things like that. Thanks for listening.

[BIG AL]

I tell you people like you are the ones who make it who are willing to indure in the tough times.My sponsor always says if it felt good to sober up we would be meeting in the metro dome or some huge staduim instead of little club house with just single or double digit #s.It feels bad and seems to go against our nature to be sober but soon another nature all of its own will take over and feeling sober will feel natural.

[Chewi]

Thank goodness that you DID get through it. Truth is that life will always be wrought with problems. I drank again this week, and it was one of the darkest weeks of my life. All the problems of my life added up were not so bad as the stupidity and drunkenness I brought on myself. Now again I have to face the consequences. My f2f today talked about gratitude. When I drink I throw away the attitude of gratitude and become an angry, negative, worthless being. When I am sober I am grateful and work to stay positive. It is like night and day. One man today was grateful he got only 12 months and not 5 years in jail. One man though having to live on mac and cheese for a period was happy to be reunited and have time with his son--his son cared not one iota about being poor, but about doing things with his dad.
I have to actively work at seeing the positive in all things. In being patient to let God teach me the lessons and build character through the hard things. To be grateful for my daily bread and not hateful in my future wants.
Glad you made it through. I am beginning my program again and hope I have finally learned my lesson to follow the suggestions of the program.

[yukonm]

Prayers for both of you!!
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[mmarq56]

I had convinced myself that I had to go to AA related activities ONLY. There is life outside of AA and I finally figured that out. Wow..what a concept. Now I realize that I can go to "normal" functions, just don't pick up that drink. I don't even think about it when others are drinking because what I say to myself is "they can drink normally, I can't". The people that I do see drink are the weird drinkers that drink one beer -- one glass of wine??? Huh??? Never did that. So, that's what keeps me not wanting it at that point. Thanks for listening...