I feel like my recovery is in jeopardy

[Jay Bee]

Hello my recovering famliy, I really do love my recovery process , I am grateful for the program of NA. I've came along way , from where i use to be. recovering from drugs was easy , because the obsession has been lifted. recovering from myself is the challenge for me. Im scared, Im bein overcome with fear , because i feel like im failing. I have'nt work in months , and because i hav'nt im starting to think those old behaviorism. I really feel like im giving up on myself. My worrying is a lack of my fate , but here's the thing , Im not feeling that power anymore. Im trying to hold on , but i dont know how long i can. Yes the program works,Im just feeling ,it is'nt working for me anymore. Please pray for me.:21:

[Chewi]

:195: Praying Jay Bee!

Boy do I hear you! You know I have relapsed lately but now am on track again. You DO NOT want to go there--it WILL be bad. Being unemployed is so difficult. It is hard to remember your purpose--but remember, God made you and has a purpose for your life! Pray today for God to show you your purpose for today. Sharing here, encouraging others, that is a wonderful thing that you do! Maybe get to a meeting and encourage a newcomer there or remind and old timer where he has been and why he doesn't want to go back.

Remember too that this down moment is but a moment and it will pass. Feelings are not fact. I'm so glad you shared and praying for your needs and that you get all the help and support you need today! :D

[Starlight]

(((Jay Bee)))
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a rough time right now, but you know, I think it's in times like these that we begin to dig deep and find new strength that we never knew we possessed. In my own experience, I have found that it is in my darkest hours that I find a new path of where I need to go. I truly believe that our recovery is ever-changing & that there are challenges put out there for us to stand up to & become stronger because of them. What you might be seeing as obstacles right now might actually be positive opportunities in disguise.
The wonderful thing about recovery is that everyone of us can be an inspiration to someone else... a person clean for 3 days can very possibly look like a hero to someone that hasn't used for the past hour. To keep our own recovery strong, we must help others. As it is said, 'you can't keep it unless you give it away". Maybe this is your time to really reach out your hand to others... whether it be to another addict, or to better the community you live in. The spare time you have right now because of not working might be a gift that you're not aware of ....we never know how God is going to work his miracles through us :)

I pray for that you find peace & strength in this trying time. :42:

[skyhook]

I have noticed my fear levels rise during the economic downturn as well.

My best defense is remembering that God is still in control, that today He met my needs and that today is not the time to concern myself with tomorrow. I bring to mind His faithfulness in times past,His lovekindness and the banner of grace He drapes over my families life.

Idol hands make me goofy, so I keep moving like a target dodging the bullet of complacency. My old mind and feelings want to lead me to quick sand mirages of "serenity", but I try to quickly recognize their game and take them captive to a place of reason.

A reasoning mind that I have fought hard for and because of the battles won, I can use my reasoning mind to dismiss, today, the quack smack of stinking thinking. I gave up long ago, the notion that I would someday purge my mind of quack smack thinking. I learned to recognize it for what it is...lies and dead ends. But I am content having it play only as the background music of my decisions, as opposed to the leader of my tomorrows.

Jay Bee, I know these and other weapons are at your disposal as well. Be stong my friend. May God reveal new resource to you, on every level.

Peace.

[yukonm]

Dear Jay Bee,
I am so sorry that you are struggling now, but I am grateful that you have come here to share your feelings. We are here for you and I know that God has a purpose for you. Pray that he reveal to you what that purpose is. As always you will be in my prayers.

[Jay Bee]

Thanx To All for your prayers and your words of encouragement and support. Im still trap in the hallway (my head). Im praying that this to shall pass. My grandkids keep me busy and happy , so most of the time my focus is on them. This is way im so greatful that im clean , because I DO SHOW UP . I must say this , If i hadden stumble across this website , I really dont know where I be , this really do work , knowing that others across the state's and continent's who really care's. I will promise all of you this, I will continue on praying , I will keep praticing on holding on alittle tighter to myself and will always keep you updated on the process. LOL to you all :15:

[calvin]

Jay Bee;
My disease attacks me,when I have multiple things going on at once.Or when it feels like it. It does not need a reason,but the thing I try to keep in mind is that it's there. because the battle is with the old me and the new me,so I keep telling on it.

[Starlight]

good morning Jay Bee :D

I came across a quote this morning that I would like to share:

"Your wounds can be turned into your wisdom. Your stumbling blocks can become your stepping stones if you choose.
Do not miss the remarkable opportunity that adversity and even tragedy presents. Your life can be made even better by the things that break your heart."
~Robin Sharma


I hope today brings you closer to a new sense of peace...hugs to you my friend :42:

[shydawg]

Hi Jay bee , Hang In There Man, We Ned You Brother. I'm sure you got a recovery tool box there , you didnt make it this far without out one . Be sure to crack that baby open & put it to use .. Are you talking to your sponsor?? ,Going To Meetings, keeping up on recovery literature . meditate ..STAY CONNECTED WITH YOUR HIGHER POWER!!! one of the best things someone had taught me to do was write a gratitude list . opened my eyes to all the great things I have in life that i have that I Used to take for granted & would again if I started using ..showed me how all or most of all my needs are being met & the "wants " well , I WASN'T getting most of them anyhow when i was using ... DRUGS always came first... I know from your other posts you had a few problems w/ certain meetings ., find others your comfortable with ... STAY CONNECTED we do this together man .. most importantly never give up & DONT USE NO MATTER WHAT .. we're here for ya ... remember, ya gotta stay away from old behavior also .. it aint old behavior if your still doing it!!! HANG IN THERE . BRO . PM ME ANYTIME YA LIKE!!!!

[James.F]

Hello my recovering famliy, I really do love my recovery process , I am grateful for the program of NA. I've came along way , from where i use to be. recovering from drugs was easy , because the obsession has been lifted. recovering from myself is the challenge for me. Im scared, Im bein overcome with fear , because i feel like im failing. I have'nt work in months , and because i hav'nt im starting to think those old behaviorism. I really feel like im giving up on myself. My worrying is a lack of my fate , but here's the thing , Im not feeling that power anymore. Im trying to hold on , but i dont know how long i can. Yes the program works,Im just feeling ,it is'nt working for me anymore. Please pray for me.:21:

Hello Jay Bee i can understand how you feel.I am just coming back to recovery after a long relapes.There are day's i feel ; is it really worth all the pain but some how i keep going.You can to just keep coming back and sharing.James.F....Our greatest weakness is giving up...our greastest way to succeed is to always try one more time

[dalin]

Think of 5 reasons to stay clean today!
You will make it!

[Starlight]

"It is a truth that in our darkest times we are willing to go the deepest. When life is good, we live superficially; we are not very reflective. But when the seas get rough, we step out of ourselves and ponder why things have unfolded as they have. This all leads to remarkable learning and growth. And life is all about growth and stepping into who we are meant to be".
~Robin Sharma

[SLICK50]

Hello my recovering famliy, I really do love my recovery process , I am grateful for the program of NA. I've came along way , from where i use to be. recovering from drugs was easy , because the obsession has been lifted. recovering from myself is the challenge for me. Im scared, Im bein overcome with fear , because i feel like im failing. I have'nt work in months , and because i hav'nt im starting to think those old behaviorism. I really feel like im giving up on myself. My worrying is a lack of my fate , but here's the thing , Im not feeling that power anymore. Im trying to hold on , but i dont know how long i can. Yes the program works,Im just feeling ,it is'nt working for me anymore. Please pray for me.:21:

What is this talk . . . brotha your awsome . . . for god sakes man get back to work , you know dont even get back to work if you dont want to , but DEFINETLY go do something productive to get that brilliant mind of yours up and running ....................Dude your a strong strong man I can tell , just dont make little things that happen to you in your day make you start thinking that gettin high is the only way, come on man you know that. Hey if you ever want to talk to me id love to give you my number , probably help both of us. :42:stay stong :cool:

[Jay Bee]

This is why I come here:15:, I have a sponsor, and a very large network. They all know me, sometime's I think they know alittle too much, but I still love them:15:. Sometime's it take's someone who dont know so much about me , to help me take a look at something's. Everybody's feedback help me to take alook at myself in the mirrow, to ask myself WHY , why me !!! Why not me , Im not the frist person who has ever lost their job, and wont be the last:sad:, sometime's it's hard to get out of the hallway, especially when the committee is there too. Alway's in the need of suggestion, keep it coming:15:. LOL to ALL.

[craftygirl20007]

Thanx To All for your prayers and your words of encouragement and support. Im still trap in the hallway (my head). Im praying that this to shall pass. My grandkids keep me busy and happy , so most of the time my focus is on them. This is way im so greatful that im clean , because I DO SHOW UP . I must say this , If i hadden stumble across this website , I really dont know where I be , this really do work , knowing that others across the state's and continent's who really care's. I will promise all of you this, I will continue on praying , I will keep praticing on holding on alittle tighter to myself and will always keep you updated on the process. LOL to you all :15:

When I first got into recovery, i thought all I had to do was stop drinking and doing drugs. Ohhhh Noooo!!... It is a continuous everyday change. When god shuts another door, another one will open up and you have to just not let your fears get in the way and just move forward. It is hard but always know you are not alone. My prays are with you and today is going to be a bet:smile:ter day.

[Jay Bee]

ME , the unwilling led by the unqualified, have been doing the unbelievable for so long with so little, I now accept the impossible with nothing....

[Starlight]

ME , the unwilling led by the unqualified, have been doing the unbelievable for so long with so little, I now accept the impossible with nothing....

ahhhh...but a sense of humor counts :11:
Hi buddy! Been thinking of you...hope you're feeling better...hugs to you :42: