What's wrong with me

[James.F]

Struggling alot these past few weeks and am finding it difficult to cope.I find myself emotionally and physically drained.I can't sleep and feel tired most of the day.I am very frustrated,angry,down,short tempered and just tired of being sick and tired.Its like a revolving door of no sleep,anger,lonliness,isolation,withdrawing and just down right unhappy.I tend to keep thing to myself now because i feel people are getting tired of hearing the some old stuff.I went back and looked at some post's i wrote back in 2006 and it is basically identical to today.I have only been clean for 43 days but it just seem's like nothing has changed and i am getting to the end of my rope.I know how i can feel better i just don't want to go down that path again.Just needed to get this off my chest thanks.James.F:mad::21:

[CD BUCKBERRY]

James F ,Keep trying,you can do it use your willpower.I used for 38 years ,I never thought I could get clean.I am coming up on five years on 1/10/2010.I know you can do it.Don't think about the past,it is not easy.Find new associates,the old ones will lead you back to where you were before.

[Dawnm]

You're not alone in those feelings. I am very new in the recovery process and I am struggling with a lot of uncomfortable emotions and sadness. I think that would be normal. When we use we are altering our moods and not dealing with reality, when we stop reality hits us in the face. Our brains have to also get back to normal, using takes quite a toll on a normal working brain. I think time helps this and just a suggestion, but try some new outlets. I find taking long walks really helpe my moods or any type of physical activity helps alleviate irritability and moodiness. Good luck.

Dawn

[zoomie]

ladies I know you mean well ,but this is the men's forum.

[CD BUCKBERRY]

James keep trying,you have to much to live for.

[mellotripp]

James it is not my responsibilty to tell you where you are wrong but we can't be too hard on ourselves. We suffer from a terrible disease that tells us we don't have anything of the sort or the same holds true vice versa. We are doing our best at trying to stay sober but recovery is not full of people who try and don't try, it is full of people who do and don't do. I myself could have changed along time ago, contempt prior to investigation held me back because I did not want to change I just wanted to stay sober. The fact was that I couldn't stay sober till I did change, if I would have known that is all it was going to take I would have changed along time ago. Then again, this is a crippling disease so "Easy Does It."