shydawg
07-24-2009, 03:12 AM
The total person sings, not just the vocal chords.
ESTHER BRONER
Newcomer
Last night, I dreamed I had a slip. There I was, sneaking my addictive substance, in such a small quantity that it didn't seem to matter. When I realized that I'd have to face people at a meeting, I thought, "I just won't tell them; they'll never know." I woke up with my heart pounding. It seemed so real that at first I wasn't sure it had been a dream.
Sponsor
Most of us have had dreams or fantasies of using, especially in early recovery. They're useful as a source of information, like a letter from one part of the mind to another. They remind us of who we are: underneath conscious awareness is someone who wouldn't mind going back to using and being sneaky and dishonest, who wouldn't care if we died in the process. The good new is that this was a dream, that you woke up in recovery, and that you chose to share your discomfort. Acknowledging our negative thoughts robs them of their power over us. Dreaming of a relapse, and talking about it, may help keep us from having one.
Today, I am not in denial. Awareness of my addictive self strengthens my recovery.
ESTHER BRONER
Newcomer
Last night, I dreamed I had a slip. There I was, sneaking my addictive substance, in such a small quantity that it didn't seem to matter. When I realized that I'd have to face people at a meeting, I thought, "I just won't tell them; they'll never know." I woke up with my heart pounding. It seemed so real that at first I wasn't sure it had been a dream.
Sponsor
Most of us have had dreams or fantasies of using, especially in early recovery. They're useful as a source of information, like a letter from one part of the mind to another. They remind us of who we are: underneath conscious awareness is someone who wouldn't mind going back to using and being sneaky and dishonest, who wouldn't care if we died in the process. The good new is that this was a dream, that you woke up in recovery, and that you chose to share your discomfort. Acknowledging our negative thoughts robs them of their power over us. Dreaming of a relapse, and talking about it, may help keep us from having one.
Today, I am not in denial. Awareness of my addictive self strengthens my recovery.