shydawg
07-27-2009, 09:26 AM
There is no model of the recovering addict. When the drugs go and the addict works the program, wonderful things happen. Lost dreams awaken and new possibilities arise."
- Basic Text, pg. 88
Every morning when I wake up I pray to thank God for waking me up clean and alive. I pray for the willingness to do what needs to be done throughout the day and for freedom from obsession, compulsion, and my total self-centeredness. I say the Third Step prayer and I call my sponsor and we read the morning meditation. I do all these things in order to stay reliant on a power greater than myself and to help give me the strength I need.
I've been through relapse twice in this process. The first time, I used thinking I could control my using. The second time, I used because I used a medical surgery as an excuse to take pain medication as I wanted to. God had enough Mercy to allow me to live through my last time using, and my clean date is now January 26, 2004. When I got back, my sponsor asked me what I was going to do different. I didn't really know then, but I did know that using was not an option any longer. I suffer from HIV as well as the disease of addiction and my last run took me down in weight. It was nothing but God that kept me from advancing from HIV to AIDS.
I went to meetings every day. I had withdrawal from the dope. I prayed everyday for God to give me strength, and He did! I started back on the Steps and started paying my home group back the money I had stolen from them during active addiction. Then I learned that the Louisville Area had a newsletter and that they needed help. With some gentle guidance from my sponsor, I started to show up at Newsletter meetings and soon, I got a service position. Then I stepped up and started to help put the Newsletter together on my computer, and working closely with another addict, we collaborate every month to get the version that you read completed.
With some more encouragement and after bringing up the issue with my sponsor, I enrolled back into college. I applied for financial aide, and I got it. I started slowly with just two classes, I applied myself, and I passed both of them. Also, due to some help at school, I got a good part-time job that will help me through school. All this is due to a loving and caring God, and people in NA that love me and care about me, and a supportive sponsor who believed in me even when I didn't believe in myself. It's true what the literature says: lost dreams do awaken and new possibilities arise.
- In Loving Service
David M.
- Basic Text, pg. 88
Every morning when I wake up I pray to thank God for waking me up clean and alive. I pray for the willingness to do what needs to be done throughout the day and for freedom from obsession, compulsion, and my total self-centeredness. I say the Third Step prayer and I call my sponsor and we read the morning meditation. I do all these things in order to stay reliant on a power greater than myself and to help give me the strength I need.
I've been through relapse twice in this process. The first time, I used thinking I could control my using. The second time, I used because I used a medical surgery as an excuse to take pain medication as I wanted to. God had enough Mercy to allow me to live through my last time using, and my clean date is now January 26, 2004. When I got back, my sponsor asked me what I was going to do different. I didn't really know then, but I did know that using was not an option any longer. I suffer from HIV as well as the disease of addiction and my last run took me down in weight. It was nothing but God that kept me from advancing from HIV to AIDS.
I went to meetings every day. I had withdrawal from the dope. I prayed everyday for God to give me strength, and He did! I started back on the Steps and started paying my home group back the money I had stolen from them during active addiction. Then I learned that the Louisville Area had a newsletter and that they needed help. With some gentle guidance from my sponsor, I started to show up at Newsletter meetings and soon, I got a service position. Then I stepped up and started to help put the Newsletter together on my computer, and working closely with another addict, we collaborate every month to get the version that you read completed.
With some more encouragement and after bringing up the issue with my sponsor, I enrolled back into college. I applied for financial aide, and I got it. I started slowly with just two classes, I applied myself, and I passed both of them. Also, due to some help at school, I got a good part-time job that will help me through school. All this is due to a loving and caring God, and people in NA that love me and care about me, and a supportive sponsor who believed in me even when I didn't believe in myself. It's true what the literature says: lost dreams do awaken and new possibilities arise.
- In Loving Service
David M.