I'm an Addict Wanting to Detox

[peace]

Hi,

I'm addicted to prescription drugs (Lortab) and I smoke pot daily. I take many pills a day and that's just to maintain a normal existence. I'm broke, beyond words, and can't get my drugs anymore. That's not the reason I want to stop, just sayin........

I really don't know how to begin. From what I read tapering off is the best way. I do not have family or friends to lean on. And I cannot go to a hospital. What I end up doing, I have to do alone, which is why I'm here. I need advise, help, support... ANYTHING I can get.

I simply cannot function without the pills and I'm so scared about that. I don't know where to go where I won't be judged. Also I suffer from severe depression and agoraphobia. Yeah- I'm a real mess.

I haven't found a N.A. meeting around me yet... there are some like 50+ miles away but I can't drive that far without a major panic attack (which I take xanax for)... but believe it or not, I do NOT misuse my xanax. I only take what is prescribed probably because it makes me so sleepy.

I'm a total newbie reaching out for help... help of any kind. I just want to be well and don't have the first clue on where to start. I scared out of my mind and have tried to go cold turkey and it feels WORSE than DEATH. I prayed to die but damnit, I'm still here.

Peace~

[Chewi]

Hang in there. There will be some more responses soon!

[BIG AL]

I was at your very point.I was one of those guys who could not stop using or drinking on my own.I had to be put somewhere to sober up.What I did was I hit my knees and prayed for guy to save me.And he did.I ended up at a jailhouse treatment center becouse all the chances he put in front of me I didnt take.My question is why cant you go somewhere to sober up.It seems to be better to lose it all than lose your life.Things houses jobs can be replaced your life you cant take back.I can tell you from experience i was a the jumpping off point more than one time.I would get cleaned up patched up and use over and over.You are not alone.There is a whole lot of us here that have been right were you are at and have claimed victory.It can be done.You can do it.It has been my experience that tappering off doesnt work.I would say take the 50 mile drive to meeting.I would be willing to bet that someone will take the 50 mile journey to get you.I would if I was in your area,Talk about a opportunity ti help I would jump on it.We would make a trip out of it buddy.People are willing to help just dont stop reaching out.God will put the people and resources in your path.I bet my life on it.If your a pure in your heart on wantting to stop god will open the floodgates of help for you after all he is your father and he loves you very much.I am always around here so if you need someone just send me a pm and I will answer pretty quickly.

[yukonm]

Hi peace,
First of all I want to welcome you to Cyber Recovery and tell you that YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! We are a community of people that support and encourage one another as we travel our paths of recovery. Many walk beside us and there are those who have traveled before us, all are willing to share their experience, strength and hope.
I am so glad that you are reaching out for help. I am sorry that you do not have any NA meetings in your area. You can, however, attend NA meetings online. Here is the information:

NA Chatroom
We host eight online NA meetings weekly.
www.nachatroom.org/

Also take the time to browse around the different forums, there's tons of information here. Please don't hesitate to ask for help navigating the site if you need to. I am happy you found us. Keep posting.
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[peace]

Thank you all....

[Joplinfrk]

Peace, hang in there. At my worst, I was taking at least 75 pills a day to "feel normal". On top of that, I was drinking. I was what we call in the rooms BHA-Beyond Human Aid and couldn't detox on my own anymore. I did a short three month detox with Suboxone and felt great. I can't stress enough how important the rooms of AA/NA are, though. Start bonding with people who know what you are going through.

[CD BUCKBERRY]

Peace,Welcome to Cyber recovery.net.It will get better before it gets worst,keep your spirit ask for help,wether at a meeting.You may have to go the hard painful route,cold turkey,it is not easy,but a lot of us have made it that way.No drug replacement therapy,thats just getting addicted to another substance.We are here for you anytime.Keep Coming Back,It Works If You Want It.

[boleon]

Hi,

... help of any kind. I just want to be well and don't have the first clue on where to start. I scared out of my mind and have tried to go cold turkey and it feels WORSE than DEATH. I prayed to die but damnit, I'm still here.



Sounds like you have the willingness that is so crucial to start with. If there are no NA or AA meetings in your area then look for a community clinic, detox or rehab facility. Try:

cyberrecovery.net - treatmentcenters