Still Drinking!

[donnell]

I guess I am just lonely now, everyone has moved out and my house is very quite. I call myself quiting again Sunday. But last night I gave in to drinking and left home for a ride because i was bored. I was driving home and the lines on the highway was doubled, but once again i made it home. I want to help myself, but going to detox and treatment is not a options right now because i have to work. I am the only one here and I have to pay all the bills. I guess I can call myself a fuctional alcoholic, but I know everything is going to come crumbling down. I need some self help knowledge, as it will work for me. Still trying!!!

[yukonm]

Hi Donnell,
I am sorry to hear that you are drinking again. Have you considered going to a few AA meetings? You will find that there are people there who have been where you are. In the program I was taught how to live sober. Just not drinking was only the beginning of a life that I now enjoy. If I could have figured out for myself how to stop, I would have done so long before I did. Please seek some OUTSIDE help before you injure yourself or others out there on the road.

[MrSoul1970]

donnell, i'm not perfect either ,by a long shot...i still drink,althoo much less...but Never ever drink and Drive anymore like that....I was WAYYY to lucky,should have ben dead or killed somebody many times...CALL A CAB!!!!!

Or, Maybe just the act of going thru the trouble of calling a cab May make it Not worth it to go out and drink...Maybe that could be a kind of backwards way of making yourself not drink...By KNOWING there is No way that u are going to Drink and Drive!...so why go thru the trouble at All.

MORE IMPORTANT THAT ANYTHING --

DONT DRINK AND DRIVE.....PLEASE!!!!!!

[DaveH]

Donnell,
I am glad you are still trying. How well I remember drinking because I was bored. One day that stopped working for me though and then I found myself not only bored but drunk too. Bored and Drunk....what a horrible combination. I was not willing to seek help until the drink stopped doing for me what I could not do for myself. Today I am grateful that it stopped working. That drove me to AA. As I read your message I could not help being reminded of myself. I too knew what was needed yet I always had my BUTS too. "I need to get to a meeting, BUT..... I was planning on quiting yesterday, BUT.....Lord I said those things so many times. My prayer for you is that God will remove the "buts" from your life as God did in my own. Remember that you are not alone.
Kindest Regards,
DaveH

[Vivian Eisenecher]

Thanks for reaching out, Donnell. Don't ever give up on getting sober. It's very possible even if you think you can't stop. I see miracles everyday. If I can stop anybody can. Keep coming back!

[sonia n]

Donnell
Thanks for sharing, apparently you have not given up on the miracle you are reaching out :1: we are not perfect. When you find yourself alone maybe that is when you can take yourself to a meeting instead of being stuck in you head. This is not an I program this is a "WE :42:" Believe it or not you are not ALONE.
KEEP REACHING OUT... Do Not STOP :sad:. and PLEASE do NOT DRINK and DRIVE.... Believe that I believe, you can get through this if you believe.. You are in my prayers :195:. Keep reaching out!! Things will get better if you allow it too.

[BIG AL]

I wouldnt worry about your job.When you kill somebody and go to prison if you suvive they will have you mopping the floor or working in the kitchen for about 10-15 yrs.And if you are an alcoholic you are not going to think your way sober by knowing anything.Thre is no half sober you are or you are not.I pray if you drink and drive and wreck you only hurt yourself and not some family out enjoying there day minding there own affair already doing the right thing.

[Rocket2d4]

Well, it's like this Donell. I've been sober for a long, long time.

I still go to meetings today becuase I don't want to drink anymore.
It's free, it's avaliable during lunch hours , in the morning and after work.


To be honest, I feel like stabing my eyes out with a fork attending
some meetings. I don't want to drink anymore and that's about as
simple I'm keeping it.

[Rockin Big Daddy]

Just do not drink TODAY :).... Worry about tomorrow... tomorrow.

[skyhook]

There are things worse than alcoholism.
Living with injuring an innocent comes to mind.
Get help today.

[EvilBunny]

I wouldnt worry about your job.When you kill somebody and go to prison if you suvive they will have you mopping the floor or working in the kitchen for about 10-15 yrs.And if you are an alcoholic you are not going to think your way sober by knowing anything.Thre is no half sober you are or you are not.I pray if you drink and drive and wreck you only hurt yourself and not some family out enjoying there day minding there own affair already doing the right thing.

I just hate comments like this. Alcoholics - by definition - drink despite the fact that they know the horrible consequences. I've gotten arrested for drunk driving a couple times and this was the attitude that I found least helpful. No one thinks that drinking and driving is a safe (or sane) activity. If merely educating addicts about how stupid and selfish they are helped at all then there wouldn't be any addicts, because I think we've all heard it quite enough, thank you. Piling on more guilt is just counterproductive.