Drank again after 9 months!!!

[mmarq56]

Well not very proud to say but I went out and drank after 9 mos. I went to 7 day detox and 2 days later, I was drunk again. I guess that taught me many lessons as to what I did wrong last time. I'm starting over. Don't want to count days this time cause that's alot of pressure. Oh well, what can I say ... I know I"m a real alcoholic. :frown:

[yukonm]

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[Mike G]

It took a lot of courage to admit your mistake. Remember:
1. A mistake is only a mistake if you don't learn from it.:162:
2. Recovery is not an event. It is a process.:24:
3. We are not bad getting good. We are sick getting better.:16:
4. Every set-back is a set-up for a come-back.:idea:
5. If you don't make mistakes, you are doing something wrong.:confused::
6. Keep coming back:2:
7. Don't beat yourself up:twisted:
8. You are not alone.:42:

[zoomie]

Welcome back!!!

[johnclmt]

welcome back. someone once suggested to that I try to forget everything I thought I knew about recovery durring all the times that I went in and out and start brand new. Not a relapser, new in recovery. Study the literature, do service and go to a ton of meetings. Find a sponser and take the steps and of course pray!

good luck - john M. / san diego

[alcoholrehabcoach]

...what can I say ... I know I"m a real alcoholic. :frown:

Define "real alcoholic".

[BIG AL]

I like when you ask them questions.Something real good always comes out of them

[Rockin Big Daddy]

The First Drink

The first thing I learned that day was that if I never took another drink
I would never have another problem with alcohol. . .
I had never thought about the first drink.
I had schemed and stolen drinks, but it was never the first one.
And here I had a very simple problem -- one drink,
and that's all I was able to understand.
- Experience, Strength and Hope, p. 216

Thought to Ponder . . .
The first drink has the last say.

[janbear]

Welcome back home. I encourage going to AA meetings as well as the other suggestions that johnclmt said. Let us know how you are doing.

One day at a time

[mmarq56]

Define "real alcoholic".

To me "real alcoholic" is I can't just drink weekends, week nights, or binge drink. When I drink, its an everyday, from morning until I pass out type of drinking. That's a REAL alcoholic.

[sioux]

I'm a real alcoholic too. Stop the world, I need to get off for awhile.

If someone gave me $100 to pay my $75 light bill, I'd convince them to turn it back on for $25, buy a block of cheese, tortillias and drink the rest.

My body and mind were always in a state of anticipation or regret.

AA worked for me because I didn't have to say these things. They knew me from the inside out no matter how good I was looking or how bad I was smelling.

9 months was a turning point for me Marq. I had heard it all. I could recant other people's stories better than they could. I was bored, and I wasn't being honest about me or sharing who I was or what was going on. Someone told me that there were other meetings; guess what the stories were the same the faces were different.

Eventually I decided that there was comfort in this new familiarity. No matter where I went, there I was in the faces of others that were recovering.

Please keep coming back. There are more than one turning points. We have to keep "trudging". It isn't always fun or pleasant, but it will get different. Sometimes it doesn't get better. But the way I see it if I have six problems to contend with and I drink, I'll have sixteen problems to contend with and I'll have to drink.

Your friend in recovery: Sioux

[alcoholrehabcoach]

Well not very proud to say but I went out and drank after 9 mos. I went to 7 day detox and 2 days later, I was drunk again. I guess that taught me many lessons as to what I did wrong last time. I'm starting over. Don't want to count days this time cause that's alot of pressure. Oh well, what can I say ... I know I"m a real alcoholic. :frown:


To me "real alcoholic" is I can't just drink weekends, week nights, or binge drink. When I drink, its an everyday, from morning until I pass out type of drinking. That's a REAL alcoholic.


Mmarks56,

In my experience there is nothing more compelling for a person than to be consistent with the way they define themselves. They way we define ourselves determines our very identity. It tells us who we are and it dictates the kinds of thoughts, feelings, actions and results we experience on a daily basis.

When I hear someone say they are a REAL anything, all I am hearing them say is they are real certain that this is who they are.

There are different levels of beliefs. There are beliefs we aren't really sure about, there are beliefs we are fairly certain of, and then there are convictions.

Convictions can be dangerous. Convictions are what people die for and kill each other for and fly airplanes into skyscrapers for.

As a friend, not as a coach, counselor, teacher or advisor, I'm suggesting you be very careful of your convictions. Be vary careful about the things you are convincing yourself are true, even when their is plenty of evidence to support what you believe.

But enough of my philosophy.

In your view, if a real alcoholic is someone who "can't just drink weekends, week nights or binge drink" or if it is someone who drinks "everyday, from morning until I pass out", then my question is:

Who or what were you during all those months you didn't drink?

[alcoholrehabcoach]

Yes. I believe all those undesirable things happen for a reason, too.

[yukonm]

I believe God exists and I believe Satan exists. Not all people live in God's will or are guided by His divine purpose for us.

[skyhook]

It is free will that allows mankind to reject God's love.

Any other kind of "will" and true puppets would have been the result.

Love is only love, when you can reject it.

Love without the possibility of rejection is not a free gift.

The unibomber and his free will expressed carnage and hate.

People don't reject Christians, they reject the God of Abraham and it is God who gave them the free will to do so.

In order to reject something, it must exist...otherwise what is the point ?

To readily see evil and question a God who would allow it, while in the same breath speaking of "puppet creations" is hard.

Welcome to the Forum where all beliefs are respected.

[alcoholrehabcoach]

Cool!

Three big questions. I love big questions because they really challenge me to come up with simple answers, instead of more long-winded philosphies that have no proven or practical application. You are asking about the basis of my belief, how I define "that reason", and to hear more about my philosophy.

For me this discussion is really about beliefs, and once again I am concerned about continuing this discussion here because I believe this is still mmarks thread we are communicating in. I just want to make sure we are doing everything we can to support him in getting his questions answered, or giving him whatever else he needs in this particular thread.

In fact, having said that, if you want to discusss this further, Light, then please start a new thread somewhere else and I'll be happy to meet you there. (Just be sure to tell me where it is!)

Thanks very much, Light, and while I'm waiting for you to begin that thread, I will think more about your questions. I'm looking forward to discussing this with you further to see what we can learn.

[Honey Barbara]

This is getting interesting. Alcohol rehab coach you have a lot of support and friends here, and people have made you very welcome, but that is the 2nd time you have diverted big questions to another thread. Skyhook is still waiting for answers.
I think they are good questions, and if you do too, perhaps it's time for an answer. Let's all just make sure we go there in LOVE.
peace and light
Honey-Barbxxxxxx

[Honey Barbara]

uh oh Honey Barbara opened her big gob, without checking the post.
Alcohol rehab coach you have my humble apologies, as you did answer skyhook. I am very sorry. I do believe in absolute transparency, I think these discussions are really good, so I hope everyone is cool with it. I am going to slink off now in disgrace.
As I said in earlier post you have a lot of support here, so hopefully we can all move on the next level of knowing each other and where we stand with RESPECT - which I could have had a bit more of.
peace and green tea
Honey Barbaraxxxxxxxxx:42: