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clean42day
07-29-2006, 01:34 PM
THE PROBLEM


Many of us found that we had several characteristics in common as a result of being brought up in an alcoholic or other dysfunctional households.

We had come to feel isolated, and uneasy with other people, especially authority figures. To protect ourselves, we became people pleasers, even though we lost our own identities in the process. All the same we would mistake any personal criticism as a threat.

We either became alcoholics ourselves, married them, or both. Failing that, we found other compulsive personalities, such as a workaholic, to fulfill our sick need for abandonment.

We lived live from the standpoint of victims. Having an over developed sense of responsibility, we preferred to be concerned with others rather than ourselves. We got guilt feelings when we trusted ourselves, giving in to others. We became reactors rather than actors, letting others take the initiative.

We were dependent personalities, terrified of abandonment, willing to do almost anything to hold on to a relationship in order not to be abandoned emotionally. We keep choosing insecure relationships because they matched our childhood relationship with alcoholic or dysfunctional parents.

These symptoms of the family disease of alcoholism or other dysfunction made us 'co-victims', those who take on the characteristics of the disease without necessarily ever taking a drink. We learned to keep our feelings down as children and keep them buried as adults. As a result of this conditioning, we often confused love with pity, tending to love those we could rescue.

Even more self-defeating, we became addicted to excitement in all our affairs, preferring constant upset to workable solutions.

This is a description, not an indictment.

Review the characteristics listed. If you identify with these characteristics then seek appropriate sources of support to understand and resolve them. You will find many books at the bookstore on this subject. Additionally, there is Adult Children of Alcoholics 12-Step self-help community meeting, individual therapy, and group therapy facilitated by a therapist.

1 Isolation, fear of people, and fear of authority figures.

2 Difficulty with identity issues related to seeking constantly the approval of others.

3 Frightened by angry people and personal criticism.

4 Have become an alcoholic yourself, married one, or both. A variation would be the attraction to another compulsive personality such as a workaholic. The similarity is that neither is emotionally available to deal with overwhelming and unhealthy dependency needs.

5 Perpetually being the victim and seeing the world from the perspective of a victim.

6 An overdeveloped sense of responsibility. Concerned about the needs of others to the degree of neglecting your own wants and needs. This is a protective behavior for avoiding a good look at yourself and taking responsibility to identify and resolve your own personal difficulties.

7 Feelings of guilt associated with standing up for your rights. It is easier to give into the demands of others.

8 An addiction to excitement. Feeling a need to be on the edge, and risk-taking behaviors.

9 A tendency to confuse feelings of love and pity. Attracted to people that you can rescue and take care of.

10 Avoidance of feelings related to traumatic childhood experiences. Unable to feel or express feelings because it is frightening and/or painful and overwhelming. Denial of feelings.

11 Low self-esteem. A tendency to judge yourself harshly and be perfectionistic and self-critical.

12 Strong dependency needs and terrified of abandonment. Will do almost anything to hold onto a relationship in order to avoid the fear and pain of abandonment.

13 Alcoholism is a family disease which often results in a family member taking on the characteristics of the disease even if they are not alcoholics (para-alcoholics). Dysfunctional relationships, denial, fearful, avoidance of feelings, poor coping, poor problem solving, afraid that others will find out what you are really like, etc.

14 Tendency to react to things that happen versus taking control and not being victim to the behavior of others or situations created by others.

15 A chameleon. A tendency to be what others want you to be instead of being yourself. A lack of honesty with yourself and others.

elaine
08-03-2006, 12:03 AM
I am new to this site so here goes a try. I have been a child of an alcoholic mother for over 25 yrs. Tonight I felt overwhelmed by her behavior at a restaurant. She was arrogant with the waitress. I was embarassed by her behavior. I felt like a child wanting to run away .

Doraine
08-03-2006, 10:35 AM
:75: & :46: Elaine. Maybe you'll have to decline invitations to go out with her knowing she'll behave badly due to her drinking. Do you go to ACOA? You can get the support you need to cope. You can't change your mother but you can change how you deal with her.Keep coming back. :101:

clean42day
08-03-2006, 11:29 AM
Hi There Elaine...and Welcome to the site.

I agree with Doriane....it would help to set boundaries with your mother and choose to not participate in the insantiy that surrounds alcoholism.

another thing that was tricky for me....When I am embarrased by other peoples behavior....that is natural and normal....but then ACOA's tend to take it a step further and own the guilt and shame that goes along with that behavior, becuse somehow we get it twisted in our minds, that the alcoholic is a reflection of us. we feel bad for things we haven't even done. That is where the pervasive sickness of alcoholism begins to make us sick too. we have to seperate ourselves from the behavior of the alcoholic and detach, instead of enmesh ourselves in it emotionally.

There is a saying that I learned in the meetings that works for me.

I didn't cause it,
I am not responsible for it,
and I can't fix it.

don't let your mothers behavior be a reflection of your self, or your self-esteem ok? ACOA meetings and Codependents anonymous will help you to start living in the solution instead of living with the problem.

hope this helps you

light and love

Gail

fibiray
08-03-2006, 06:32 PM
We had come to feel isolated, and uneasy with other people, especially authority figures. To protect ourselves, we became people pleasers, even though we lost our own identities in the process. All the same we would mistake any personal criticism as a threat. I have lived this way for many years and it is a hard thing to try and lose. Thank god for the program thats all I can say. I remeber my first 2 yrs in sobriety, I was so nieve and automatically blamed myself for why my family was the way they were. I actually continued to live with the threat of being beaten by certain family members and had accepted this as my fate for my alcoholism. Until I went to a meeting one night and a woman had identified in me the fear and the threat hanging over me. Of course I was the last to know about such things, as often we are. Anyhow she had turned around and said to me "you know fi you can have someone charged if they assault you." I knew this to be a very obvious piece of information but thought to myself what a strange thing to say. Of course the threat had emerged several days later, and despite shaking with fear had stood my ground and state clearly that I would not tolerate being abused no more and if necessary would have both my brother and mother charged if I was ever threatened or hit again. It was quite an empowering moment. I still at times can feel awkward and uneasy around other people and personal criticism is very hard on me the super sensitive who has been put down and annihilated so often in my childhood. In fact the cruelty that I had experience had crippled me with a lot of self doubt. I love that motto of I didn't cause it, I am not responsible for it and I can't fix it. Amen to that. Welcome aboard Elaine .

Peggyannvt
08-03-2006, 10:34 PM
Welcome home/here, Elaine .

Al-anon says the three C's
I didn't cause alcoholism
I can't control it.
And I can't cure it.

Stay around and you may hear some more things that might help.

LOVE
Peggyann