janbear
06-09-2006, 02:58 PM
Awareness
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I allow my awareness to be healing, freeing my actions & feelings from judgment.
The constantly rerunning old voice that says to me, "You are not good enough. You failed again. You are stupid, naive. You went the wrong way. How could you have been so shortsighted?" might need to keep talking, but I do not have to allow it to provoke a reaction from me. I can be aware that it is running without stopping to engage it, without using it as confirmation that there is something inherently wrong with me. If I simply observe it as something passing through, it loses its power to turn me against myself.
I seek to be aware of myself in each moment. To breathe deeply from the belly & notice all my attachments without becoming defined by them. To be aware & release my feelings & actions from judgment, I learn who I am & notice my place & right size in the universe.
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"I am lighthouse rather than lifeboat. I do not rescue, but instead help others to find their own way to shore, guiding them by my example"Modern Affirmation
And this above all, to thine own self be true. And it must follow as night the day, thou canst not be false to any man. -Shakespeare
janbear
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Age: 43
Joined: 02 Dec 2005
Posts: 3409
Posted: Sun Feb 19, 2006 7:12 pm Post subject:
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I recieved some of these messages initially from one of my abusers. And then i took them on and believed them about myself, Took me a long time to not say these things to myself. And even at times they come back. I get from this reading that they don't have to have power over me. It doesnt have to evoke a reaction from me. It is simply passing through.
_________________
"I am lighthouse rather than lifeboat. I do not rescue, but instead help others to find their own way to shore, guiding them by my example"Modern Affirmation
And this above all, to thine own self be true. And it must follow as night the day, thou canst not be false to any man. -Shakespeare
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I allow my awareness to be healing, freeing my actions & feelings from judgment.
The constantly rerunning old voice that says to me, "You are not good enough. You failed again. You are stupid, naive. You went the wrong way. How could you have been so shortsighted?" might need to keep talking, but I do not have to allow it to provoke a reaction from me. I can be aware that it is running without stopping to engage it, without using it as confirmation that there is something inherently wrong with me. If I simply observe it as something passing through, it loses its power to turn me against myself.
I seek to be aware of myself in each moment. To breathe deeply from the belly & notice all my attachments without becoming defined by them. To be aware & release my feelings & actions from judgment, I learn who I am & notice my place & right size in the universe.
_________________
"I am lighthouse rather than lifeboat. I do not rescue, but instead help others to find their own way to shore, guiding them by my example"Modern Affirmation
And this above all, to thine own self be true. And it must follow as night the day, thou canst not be false to any man. -Shakespeare
janbear
Administrator
Age: 43
Joined: 02 Dec 2005
Posts: 3409
Posted: Sun Feb 19, 2006 7:12 pm Post subject:
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I recieved some of these messages initially from one of my abusers. And then i took them on and believed them about myself, Took me a long time to not say these things to myself. And even at times they come back. I get from this reading that they don't have to have power over me. It doesnt have to evoke a reaction from me. It is simply passing through.
_________________
"I am lighthouse rather than lifeboat. I do not rescue, but instead help others to find their own way to shore, guiding them by my example"Modern Affirmation
And this above all, to thine own self be true. And it must follow as night the day, thou canst not be false to any man. -Shakespeare