Welcome notgod!

[admin]

:67: notgod! :17: Glad to have you join us here. I look forward to hearing from you. Keep coming back. :42:

[notgod]

Hi Bluidkiti and thanks for the welcome! I decided to sign up because I read your message yesterday about your initial struggle to share in AA meetings. I have been in the program for 5 and a half months and have only shared a few times after premeditating during the meeting what I thought would be either inspirational or entertaining. I realized that wasn't good so I decided not to think about what I want to say and just wait for an impulse and speak hopefullly from the heart. I went for it on Monday, spoke off the cuff but instead of a heart felt message, I tried to be funny and later regretted it. The clown in me came out. I'm going to try and go to smaller meetings where I feel more comfortable talking. I also struggle to find my nich' in our local AA group where everyone is very close to eachother. They are friendly to newcomers, but it takes me awhile to get to know people. In general, my experience with AA has been great but I've found it easier to stop drinking than accept my alcoholism and tell family and friends that I go to AA. My ego needs some work.... I'm learing to relax more and accept my imperfections, hence the name, notgod. Anyway, your thoughts about ego and speaking up at meetings hit the spot! Thanks! -notgod

[janbear]

:17: Hi notgod, nice to meet you. I remember when i first came into recovery being very nervous about sharing. I didnt share for a very long time simply because i was afraid. Slowly, i spoke, though i didnt make sense to myself much, everyone understood for they knew what it was to be like being new and scared. They had a way of making me feel comfortable, but i liked small groups also. I found the longer i was around the easier it got to share from the heart. My fear of people and what they thought of me greatly decreased too. Its a process. And "We claim spiritual progress not spiritual perfection". I am so grateful for that because like you i am not god either.
Have a great evening and keep coming back.