Gift Of Love For My Son

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Gift Of Love For My Son

I've rediscovered my life though recovery is slow
I'm learning to live, to accept and to grow.
I no longer wake up with the thought that to die
Would be better than existing and living the lie.
I try to face life with gratitude and pride
I can look in the mirror and no longer hide.
One day at a time I can now become whole
Having picked up the pieces of my broken soul.
I'm now making amends and I want you to know
How remorseful I felt when I let you go.
No matter at the time if I did the right thing
I was not aware of the guilt it would bring.
Everyday I am learning how to live with the past
To be true to myself and let go of the mask.
What's important today is I'm not the same
And there is a relationship that I can reclaim.
There's no need for forgiveness to be openly confessed
You've given it most freely and I truly am blessed.
And now that you've grown with your own son, you see
How it feels to be loved, unconditionally.
I have never stopped loving you or could ever forget
When they placed you in my arms on that first day we met.

Deborah Dacenzo