compassion - a greater understanding

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<b>flickchic</b> - Wed 22 Feb, 2006 7:06 pm<br>
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I am so thankful to my soul parent and to AA for showing me a deeper meaning to compassion, for allowing me to feel the depths I never have before....compassion is something I have been working on for a long time, I was told to have greater compassion for myself when trying to deal with past issues of c/hood abuse, to have compassion for my inner child, I feel I've always had an understanding of and been capable of having compassion for others, however it is only since the weekend I have come to have my new understanding.....I read in the news online, Sunday morning how in a country town over East from here that an accident had occurred the night before; a car had plowed into a group of teenagers, partygoers all walking together, 6 of them were killed and many others injured......It really impacted on me, they were only 16 and 17 year olds....it hurt me deep inside, I have been following the story online since, reports of the grief of fellow school mates and of the families involved, one family lost a son and daughter....even now writing about it is giving me a huge constriction in my chest....I have been asking God to please comfort these people in their times of grief, so so sad, last night I prayed to God and tears flowed freely, gosh it hurt....
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something I thought through while sitting here was how people could question "why", why could God allow this to happen....i would have asked the same once, however I know that it wasn't God's will for this to happen, it is the result of someone else's abuse of God's given will to them....the man driving also had many prior road traffice convictions....a four year old child on his lap whilst driving and his 9 year old son in the car, these two were not hurt however he left the car at the scene with the two children in it...I am still having trouble comprehending "HOW you would do that!!!!"
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Whilst grieving last night I also came to realise that I had to be very careful not to "see-saw" and take it too personally, not in a negative sense...not to not care...but to "let go and let God" now, it is in his hands.
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I asked forgiveness of my soul parent also for not having had compassion enough in the past....I really had no idea the depths of pain, concern and care I could feel for people I do not know.
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The accident would have and will be impacting greatly on that community, where "everyone knows everyone", I ask of you God to please be there in their time of need and to guide them through their grief that they may be comforted in knowing that their children, your children are with you. <img src="images/smiles/74.gif" alt="cross" border="0"> <hr>
<b>bluidkiti</b> - Thu 23 Feb, 2006 3:30 am<br>

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I will pray for them also ((((felicity))). <img src="images/smiles/15.gif" alt="pray" border="0"> <img src="images/smiles/45.gif" alt="hug" border="0"> <hr>
<b>Prescott</b> - Thu 23 Feb, 2006 8:27 am<br>
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Hi Felicity, One of the things in recovery I like and don't like is that I feel everything. I've found over the years that one of the reasons I drank was to numb those feelings. Tommorow is the day Barbara passed away and these last few day my feelings have been raw. One year to the day and it's like it was yesterday. I try not to watch too much news as it affects me negatively. Being a veteran this war has me feeling for the veterans and the families. For I know that the war is just the beginning of a life long struggle with issues related to and from actions taken when a person is very young. Life on life's terms can be difficult. Hang in there my friend your doing really good and thanx for sharing from your heart. I always love reading you shares. Your brother in recovery John <hr>

<b>janbear</b> - Thu 23 Feb, 2006 9:44 am<br>
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Hi Felicity, Compassion for others is something i started feeling once i entered into recovery. This alcoholic/addict here was one selfish, self-centered person, thinking the world revolved around me.I thought it was 'all about me". Today i know its not. It is a selfish program in that i must do it for myself, but i found that as i grew that i started thinking of others and what God will help me do for others without losing sight of my needs. It is about balance today. If i dont let God take care of me, i cant help others much. AA literature says i can't keep what i have unless i give it away. It also says i can't give what i dont have. So i work the program. "Trust God, Clean House, Help Others" Compassion is an awesome feeling.
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<img src="images/smiles/15.gif" alt="pray" border="0"> Saying a prayer right now. <hr>
<b>flickchic</b> - Fri 24 Feb, 2006 7:40 pm<br>

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<div align="center"><div class="codetitle">Quote:</div><div class="quotediv">One of the things in recovery I like and don't like is that I feel everything</div></div>
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I've always been a very emotional person, pretty open in "expressing my feelings", love, hate, anger, excitement, I'm very easy to read, I've come to realise I haven't really "felt" my own feelings for a long long time....it's been scaring me these past few days.