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delta_sue · 01-22-2008, 12:52 AM

I've recently been diagnosed bipolar by an evaluator and a therapist.

The next step is to see the psychiatrist in order to explore prescription treatment options.

I'm scared!! I know I'm finally doing the right thing for myself and for my recovery by seeking help for this condition and its overwhelming symptoms & manifestations. At the same time, however, I can't help thinking about all the times I lied to doctors to get scripts for the sole purpose of acquiring & abusing the meds.

Today is 90 days and I'm finally feeling like I'm not depriving myself of 'good times' with my willing & conscious choice to not use.

But I gotta ask

: How will I know what's right when the time comes for pharmacological treatment of my disorder?

*kaistevens* · 02-17-2008, 04:07 PM

I am bi polar and have been on medication for years. The medications that your doctors will put you on are not the sorts of meds that people abuse, or even would want to. It is really no different that taking medication for High Blood Pressure, or diabetes, or even an anti biotic for an infection.

You are treating a medical problem, with a medical solution. Talk with your doctors about your fears and let them know your concerns.

I have had to learn the hard way that if I treat my alcoholism, but not my mental illness, I lose my serenity and my sanity. I have to take care of both illnesses to keep my recovery.

mellotripp · 02-20-2008, 04:00 PM

Dear Sue, the best you can do is be as honest with your Doctor as possible, tell him exactly how you feel, emotionally, physically, and mentally. You will find that as long as you can do that, it is not so bad to have a disease like ours once you get to know it. I am responsible for my recovery from any illness that I may have. I am schizo-affective, that is slightly a bit more complicated but even so, thank God for this illness because it wasn't till I tried to drink over the medication that I truly became powerless. And it wasn't till I came into recovery that I am learning how to live.

delta_sue · 03-10-2008, 09:55 PM

Thanks very much for the responses offered here. I'm happy to tell you that my prescription therapy is going well and I have a more positive outlook than I've had in a long time. Receiving psych treatment is just one piece of my emerging self and I'm glad to have it but I'd like to emphasize my gratitude to the addicts that I encounter on this site and the NA family I've been blessed to be able to attend meetings with. Thank you again...

delta_sue

treetop · 03-17-2008, 09:00 AM

I too am bipolar and take Depakote. There are not to many thrill meds for bipolar. You will be amazed what life is like when your brain works half way right.

Mr.Willing · 06-24-2008, 10:27 PM

i am schizo too...those meds dont make u HIGH :) don't worry .... u r doing ur best anyway...i too had the same thoughts and fears about meds...not taking meds though is absolute insanity , dont u agree ??

Mr.Willing · 06-24-2008, 10:28 PM

hopefully anyone can help me by telling me will i ever be cured from schizo ??

treetop · 06-24-2008, 10:47 PM

Just don't know! I did not have bipolar until menopause. I try to live in today, present moment like and for today I will do my treatment. If it ever changes, I will praise the mighty creator.

*CD BUCKBERRY* · 06-25-2008, 07:29 PM

delta sue ,Glad to have you here at CRF,we are here for you.Keep Coming Back,it works if you want it.Keep up the good work and don't go and work the doctors,it just makes everything worse and confusing.We are here to give you support.

treetop · 06-25-2008, 10:48 PM

Delta Sue, glad things are improving for you. Keep taking good care of yourself.

01-22-2008, 12:52 AM	#1
delta_sue Newcomer Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Plant City, Florida Posts: 4	Bipolar & Scared I've recently been diagnosed bipolar by an evaluator and a therapist. The next step is to see the psychiatrist in order to explore prescription treatment options. I'm scared!! I know I'm finally doing the right thing for myself and for my recovery by seeking help for this condition and its overwhelming symptoms & manifestations. At the same time, however, I can't help thinking about all the times I lied to doctors to get scripts for the sole purpose of acquiring & abusing the meds. Today is 90 days and I'm finally feeling like I'm not depriving myself of 'good times' with my willing & conscious choice to not use. But I gotta ask : How will I know what's right when the time comes for pharmacological treatment of my disorder?

02-17-2008, 04:07 PM	#2
kaistevens Community Greeter Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Oklahoma City, Oklahoma Posts: 246	I am bi polar and have been on medication for years. The medications that your doctors will put you on are not the sorts of meds that people abuse, or even would want to. It is really no different that taking medication for High Blood Pressure, or diabetes, or even an anti biotic for an infection. You are treating a medical problem, with a medical solution. Talk with your doctors about your fears and let them know your concerns. I have had to learn the hard way that if I treat my alcoholism, but not my mental illness, I lose my serenity and my sanity. I have to take care of both illnesses to keep my recovery. __________________ Shared joy, is two times the joy. Shared sorrow, is half the sorrow. Don't leave the "WE" out of your recovery!!

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02-20-2008, 04:00 PM	#3
mellotripp Devoted Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Posts: 263	Dear Sue, the best you can do is be as honest with your Doctor as possible, tell him exactly how you feel, emotionally, physically, and mentally. You will find that as long as you can do that, it is not so bad to have a disease like ours once you get to know it. I am responsible for my recovery from any illness that I may have. I am schizo-affective, that is slightly a bit more complicated but even so, thank God for this illness because it wasn't till I tried to drink over the medication that I truly became powerless. And it wasn't till I came into recovery that I am learning how to live.

03-10-2008, 09:55 PM	#4
delta_sue Newcomer Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Plant City, Florida Posts: 4	Thanks very much for the responses offered here. I'm happy to tell you that my prescription therapy is going well and I have a more positive outlook than I've had in a long time. Receiving psych treatment is just one piece of my emerging self and I'm glad to have it but I'd like to emphasize my gratitude to the addicts that I encounter on this site and the NA family I've been blessed to be able to attend meetings with. Thank you again... delta_sue

03-17-2008, 09:00 AM	#5
treetop Regular Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: lake erie, ohio Posts: 39	I too am bipolar and take Depakote. There are not to many thrill meds for bipolar. You will be amazed what life is like when your brain works half way right.

06-24-2008, 10:27 PM	#6
Mr.Willing Regular Join Date: Feb 2008 Posts: 14	i am schizo too...those meds dont make u HIGH :) don't worry .... u r doing ur best anyway...i too had the same thoughts and fears about meds...not taking meds though is absolute insanity , dont u agree ??

06-24-2008, 10:28 PM	#7
Mr.Willing Regular Join Date: Feb 2008 Posts: 14	hopefully anyone can help me by telling me will i ever be cured from schizo ??

06-24-2008, 10:47 PM	#8
treetop Regular Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: lake erie, ohio Posts: 39	Just don't know! I did not have bipolar until menopause. I try to live in today, present moment like and for today I will do my treatment. If it ever changes, I will praise the mighty creator.

06-25-2008, 07:29 PM	#9
CD BUCKBERRY Community Greeter Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: New Hampshire Posts: 578	delta sue ,Glad to have you here at CRF,we are here for you.Keep Coming Back,it works if you want it.Keep up the good work and don't go and work the doctors,it just makes everything worse and confusing.We are here to give you support.

06-25-2008, 10:48 PM	#10
treetop Regular Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: lake erie, ohio Posts: 39	Delta Sue, glad things are improving for you. Keep taking good care of yourself.